If you put your arms around me, could it change the way i feel?
I guess I let myself believe that the outside might just bleed it's way in
Maybe stir the sleeping past lying under glass
Waiting for the kiss that breaks this awful spell
Pull me out of this lonely cell
Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal into something beautiful
What I get from my reflection isn't what i thought i'd see
Give me reason to believe you'd never keep me incomplete
Will you untie this loss of mine, it easily defines me
Do you see it on my face?
That all i can think about is how long
I've been waiting to feel you move me
Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me me and make me something
Change this something normal into something beautiful.
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
And i'm still fighting for the word to break these chains
And i still pray when i look in your eyes, you'll stare right back down
Into something beautiful
Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me me and make me something
Change this something normal into something beautiful.
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful

'something beautiful' by jars of clay.

i've been puttin e lyrics of these songs cuz i tink dat dey r relli relevant to wad is happenin to me now... but dun worry guyz, im sure im b able to solve my probs yea? stay cheerful............. (",)

take, take till there's nothing, nothing to turn to.
nothing when you get through.
won't you break, scatter pieces of all i've been.
bowing to all i've been running to.
i, i got a question, i got a question - where are you?
did you leave me unbreakable?
leave me frozen?
i've never felt so cold.
i thought you were silent.
i thought you left me for the wreckage and the waste.
on an empty beach of faith.
was it true?
scream, deeper i wanna scream.
i want you to hear me, i want you to find me.
i want to believe but all i pray is wrong and all i claim is gone.
i, i got a question, i got a question - where are you?
where are you?

'silence' by jars of clay.

i.......... i got a question.....................

haha... listenin to 'silence' by jars of clay, in the album the eleventh hour.... relli good song... asks god where are you n all dat kinda stuff.... relli beautiful song... but wtvr..... ah well.... i jus im a bit happier nowadays, although i still get v pms over small things cuz ppl irritate me w/o meanin it... its not their fault lah, jus mine.... sigh.... thnx abby, selene for cheerin me up.... im relli grateful for all the considerate ppl ard me... ah well.... tmr chinese new year eve.... lookin forward to it..... gg bk tao nan aft skool, which ends at 1000 cuz we hav no lessons, den gg watch movie wif everyone!! haha.... thnx pet for organisin this... haha.... ah well.... hav lotsa homework cuz of e public holiday, but i've finished most already.... haha... iim so hardworking... ah well..... so sianz.... i need to save up for lots of stuff now.....

1) aisics shoes.... (cumulus 4??)
2) new walkman..... (gonna take me a long time man... mebbe shld wait for b'dae... haha)
3) new hp? i dunno.... but im gettin kinda sick of e limitations of a 3315... like e inbox so fast full.... n its so big.. haha
4) new guitar jack and cord, new picks, better strap... n spare strings, guitar cloth n polish... haha....

well i gtg now... nth more to sae anyway....... cyaz guyz tmr......

`feeling better but still a little distraught`

yupoz im back... wif yet another cut on my big toe on my right foot from training today... sigh... dis guy 'starboarded' me (starboard boat has right of way) n i had to tack (change direction wif e sail crossing e boat) den suddenly a stupid gust had to come along n make my boat heel, forcing me to jump acorss e boat n stub my toe on e traveller.... crap.... practically bled up e whole boat... so much blood... thank god i didnt faint... haha.... woz like prayin for it to stop bleeding all thro e race... anyway, with or without the cut, i still underperformed... supposed to get 1st for at least 3 out of 5 races, only got 1st for two... e rest got 2nd... argh... k im crapping here.... wtvr.... ah well, not much to talk abt... jus dat im lookin forward to church dis sundae... i need a break from work.... hope e worship will be good... haha... sigh.... so bored.... i relli need to buy a good pick... im thinkin of a jim dunlop fins pick, but a softer one, like .60mm? i dunno larh... one day i jus go swee lee n buy eveythin i need, including a longer jack, mebbe 30 feet, n spare strings, a guitar cloth, a fretboard polish, blah blah blah.... ah wad e heck lah.... so sian nowadays... i seem to get so pmsy so easily... im always needing smth to cheer me up... sigh....

`distraughtness + pissed-off-nature is not a good thing`

ah well... im so bored nowadays.... also not goin online often anyway, n havent been blogging n stuff... haha... yest woz cool in most areas n not-so-cool in others... worship woz good, lesson woz good, worship retreat woz fun... haha... my bro, shaun n shane had an alliance in e amazing race... haha... got 1st... so pro... thnx sam... haha... well, found out dat terry(is dis how u spell it?) is tessa's bro, one of my old skoolmates... haha... so we went their hse, den basically had worship, food, some discussions n briefings, n den more food!! haha.... food woz relli good... i stuffed myself like crazy.. haha... den while my bro, kin yew, raveen, raj, rupen, jon kok went swimming; pet, deb, terry, amos, daniel, josh n i went walkin ard e estate... josh had leon's guitar, n like we were walkin ard talkin n playin guit... relli crazy... lotsa mutts stared at us on e way... haha... so hilarious.... learnt how to e pick scrape frm josh n shaun, although dey hav different ways of doing it... haha... den got dumped in pool... ah well.... just b4 dinner.. den had to go bathe n change into dry clother aft bein in e pool for half a minute.... sigh... THANKS NO!!!

'jesus you are my best friend, you will always be, nothing will ever change that'

i jus realised i havent been blogging for some time... ah well.... nth much to say anyway.... jus dat skool has been boring so far, but then again it always has been, so yarh... no diff... haha... sigh.... ah well.... anyway, i hav learnt lotsa new stuff on my guit, mostly self-taught but some by copyin e hillsongs ppl.... when watchin em on dvd... haha... currently tryin to figure out e pluckin for 'how could i live"... haha.... ah well.... tmr got training... dun feel like goin... ah well.... im a lazy bugger... oh yea my mum jus bought some new picks for me... relli nice to hold n play n pluck wif... jim dunlop... haha.... but i still need to buy new strings... ah well... gettin bored... im gonna play guitar now... bye guyz

'laughter is truly e best medicine...'

yup... im back... with mixed feelings abt everything dat has happened so far... well, lets not dwell on e past.. its e new year already.. haha... HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! haha... well, on e 1st i woz like relli dreadin skool... haha.. but well, i got over it today... haha... although i havent done any of my holiday hw except 5 questions of maths? out of like dunno how many?? haha... well, im back in my same crazy class, which goes like THANKS NO!! every 5 mins... haha.... ah well... zhao ming, janjan n some other guy frm my class went out wif pet for lunch today... haha... almost went wif dem... but my mum dun allow... so went to watch lotr wif my dad...(im slow to watch movies, i noe...) ah well... opened my acoustic to play today in preperation for tmr's worship pract, only to find all e strings rusty... sigh... when i've jus changed them... argh... im so pissed now... rubbing e strings like crazy to try to get e rust off and make it easier to slide... ah well... doin q well lah... much better now... haha....

well sam, my bro sez yr v concerned for me cuz im always so depressed... thnx so much yea? but im tryin to cheer up nowadays, although its kinda hard to forget it... but nvm... thnx anyway guyz... cyaz ard...

everyone goin for camp echo rite?

`depression is best cured when yr ard yr frens`