'cause it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if I know you, you're doin' that thing
every day, just doin' that thing
i can't take you doin' that thing you do

hmm.. i cant seem to take that song out of my head... sigh...

monday... boring as usual... went home aft skool to get my stuff... den went to church to study.... cycled there.... nth much lar... den on the way home i felt this sudden urge to do curb riding... so when i went home i put down my bag and went out... the road woz kinda wet, but hu cares... it woz so fun... skidding everywhere... haha... den on one curb, i lifted up my front tyre and went on the curb... but my back tyre didnt make it, so like it skidded along the curb until i reached the end... supa cool... haha... there is one big long skid mark on the curb now... lol...

tuesday... went to skool again to study... but dis time went directly from skool... dropped by cold storage to buy two packs of twisties and a bottle of pepsi... den went to church again... abby dropped by for a while... dat gurl woz suppoesed to help me wif my hw, but den she left cuz of tuition... sighz... but luckily i din get scolded by my tchr for not finishin... haha... oh well... den i went home... fell asleep on the bed and skipped dinner... haha...

today woz ok too i gez... went to church again aft skool and had the 2nd pack of twisties for lunch.... haha... im pro man... lol... got quite a bit of work done i gez, but my fingers got cramped very quickly... haha... den walked home... wanted to go cycling but horrible adriel din wanna go wif me... sigh... so i walked flops to abby's house... (no big fierce dogs dis time) met her outside... flops is cute rite???!!! haha... but yea.... den after dat kinda got caught a bit in the rain but it woz ok lah... jogged the last part back, and flops woz like trailing behind so much dat i had to stop for him... oh well... i jus finished dinner... feeling kinda full... haha...

the musketeers band is forming up... i already got the first song we should do in mind... i did some timing for it while playing it on the guitar... abt 3 minutes lar... a good song to start wif... haha...

im gonna stand
im gonna run
into your arms
into your arms again... ...

HAPPIE B'DAE JOHN BOI!!! STAE COOL DEAR ATHOS!!!

you, doin' that thing you do
breaking my heart into a million pieces, like you always do
and you, don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
i've been goin' through

hmmm.. its been a long time since i've actually related what happened in my life...

okie... saturday woz not very good for me... had to go to skool at 7 for remedial... so early... sigh... oh well... den i went home, n called adriel to come over to my hse to study... we din manage to do much, cuz like we had to catch teenage mutant ninja turtles on kids central... that particuler episode is quite cool... haha... oh well... den i went wif adriel for lunch... but i dropped off the electric at church so that i din havta lug it around... den we went to the KFC at siglap for lunch... aft dat we went bk to church... we were still early, so we like jammed for a bit before amanda n dose peepz came... den like worship woz kinda screwed cuz SOME people din print chords EVEN THOUGH i offered to help dem... oh well... so we din get to do the sparrow song... n worship itself woz a harrowing experience... so paiseh... halfway force me to sing... sigh... shall not talk abt dat anymore... aft masterlife i went home wif adriel, den din do anything lar...

well, i try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do

today woz quite ok lar... first we had church... lesson woz quite interesting, what with the antics of the RI and all... den we went to the room reuben, and like we played monkey with the rugby ball... haha... quite fun lar.. den we went to ROL and like went to jam... but SOME selfish people din wanna let me play drums, so i gez i woz kinda a loner larh... den we went to judah, n i din do anything except sit around lar.. i feel so loner...

and i, know all the games you play
and i'm gonna find a way to let you know that
you'll be mine someday
cause we, could be happy, can't you see
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
and keep you here with me

anyway, after that we went to genki sushi at TM wif adriel, josh, pet, my bro, and the b'dae boi... saw nattie n her family dere... oh well... i like the ice dey serve dere... haha... but wtvr... after lunch we jus walked around n stuff lar... nth much... den went home... slacked for awhile before going to adriel's house to swim... i woz havin a nice time sinbathing before those horrible people started splashing me n threw me in the pool... sigh... den now i hav blisters on my two feet from running around the pool... the ground woz like so hot... argh... den we had water gunfight wif sum of adriel's kid malay neighbours... haha... dey cheat lar... they use super soakers while we use some pathetic gun... anyway, in the end we threw them all in the pool... den i had to go home...

oh well..... watched F1... micheal schumacher wins at imola again.... its gettin kinda borin lar... oh wellz....

-im losing all my frens?-

'cause it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if I know you, you're doin' that thing
every day, just doin' that thing
i can't take you doin' that thing you do

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay? Would it be a sin?
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

-life sux? *shrugs*-

i've got her in my head
at night when I go to bed
and I know it sounds lame, but
she's the girl of my dreams

and of course I'd do anything for her
i'd search the moons of Endor
i'd even walk naked through
the deserts of Tatooine

princess Leia, where are you tonight?
and who's laying there by your side?
every night I fall asleep with you
and I wake up alone

and even though I'm not as cool as Han
i still want to be your man
you're exactly the kind of
alderranian that I need

but when you were available, I was
drinking Colt 45's with Lando
i was hanging out in the cantina
on Mos Eisley

princess Leia, where are you tonight?
and who's laying there by your side?
every night I fall asleep with you
and I wake up alone

-you rock my world-

i watch you smile
you steal the show
you take a bow
the curtain falls in front of you
you're magical, on display
i gaze into your eyes and
you turn to look the other way

oh wellz... life sux? i dunno...

had skool sports day at VJC on friday... nth much lar... whampoa (my house) came in 2nd... not bad, but we were hoping to get 1st.. oh well... went home pretty shack, and din do much but play electric lar...

saturday woz kinda ok too... woke up relli late, feeling relli sucky... den jus ate lunch and went to church early... i wanted to go early, b4 everyone so i could play drums... released quite a lot of stress lar... den stefan arrived n i let him play the drums while i set up my guitar for the masterlife worship.... worship overall woz not bad lar... i tink timmy is quite a good worship leader, jus dat he needs to listen to christian songs a bit more lar... cuz it woz like very hard for me to explain how the song went... i relli sang my heart out while playing... "my best friend" woz not bad, n i woz like almost jumping, but den i woz holding my guitar v low, so it woz bouncing up and down n relli hard to play, so i stopped... everyone sez my guitar woz v loud, but i din tink so, especially when the drums kicked in... oh well... "to the ends of the earth" woz not bad too lar... relli sang out loud... den the lesson woz ok lar, jus dat i got kissed by stefan n jansen... crap man... its like so gay... i woz struggling, but it woz like 2-on-1, den like dey grabbed hold of me n kissed me... so gay... *shudders* i feel so violated... oh well...

sunday woz ok too i gez... worship woz good, jus dat i din relli get into the spirit until the slow songs came, n like den i relli sang myself out... oh well... lesson woz ok i gez, n my grp won the funny straw-structure game... my grp woz like darn tyco, but i gez what matters is dat we won, so yar... den aft dat din do much except walk around church tinkin abt stuff.... den i went wif jon kok n daniel to judah for a while.... diin do much lar.... den i hitched a ride home wif my mum... ate a heavy lunch, den fell asleep until stefan woke me up wif a call, askin me to go play soccer... i wanted to, but my mum said like i hadn't finished my work yet, so like i cldn't go... din do much aft dat lar...

today... nth much either... came home aft skool... woz boring (again)... den i kinda lazed around in my room, den went downstairs to eat dinner... den aft dat went to take flops for a long walk... den like when we walked past the playground, all of a sudden dis big dog ran up n started biting him... he woz like yelping like crazy... i yanked him away n he like rolled for about 2metres along the road lor... im so so so sorry flops... but that stupid dog woz biting u like crazy lor... flops is so brave... aft dat like he jus walked away n like continued on, as if nth happened... i wish i cld be liddat... im so proud of u flops!!! *smilez* den like we walked for a long time around the neighbourhood, past bedok corner n abby's house, den went home... he woz like so tired already... hes like abt 49years old in human age lor... n still so fit... im proud of him.... hes so brave n everything... not like me... sigh...

i feel myself surrender
each time I see your face
i am staggered by your beauty
your unassuming grace
and I feel my heart is turning
falling into place
i can't hide
now hear my confession

i see you and my heart starts beating rapidly
i want to go over to talk but u seem so far away
i cant even bring myself to say hi
im useless
not worthy enough to crush u
u seem so much more *superior* to me,
as if im like a low class person falling in love with someone so high class
u made me reflect on myself
u made me realise how idiotic i actually am
trying to be cool when im not (acbc)
trying to pose
being an irritating bugger
now i realise it all

thank you

-i still love you-

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down
and we'll pray

oh wellz.... life sux... totally....

sunday... the day of all days.... started off by waking up early.... abt 5... so early rit?? sigh.... den walked to the road outside church while it woz still dark and silent all around the neighbourhood... kinda cool... haha... den ivee picked me up, n like we met shaun, han ling and josh at the carpark... den we went to the place, n we took out our guits, n we were desperately tryin to look at our tuners to tune our guits... only mine had LED... haha... den when we wanted to practice we cldn't see the chord sheets... haha.. but the worship went well lah.... n im not the only one hu holds an acoustic low k... josh does too.... haha... den like during the worship we saw a "sea monster"... haha... den pet woz like so.... erm.... blur? i dunno lah... haha.... we were like sayin it woz some extinct creature frm long ago... haha... but it turned out to be a horseshoe crab... haha....

den aft dat ivee n i hitched a ride in adriel's car to macs.... laughed at pet n the others when they arrived 5 min later, havin walked the whole distance... haha... quite cool..... den ivee's parents dropped us at church... den we had our macs dere...

went to ROL.... turned the corner n started laughin at my bro... haha... he woz hilarious lar... his outfit woz.... erm... crazee? haha... den we had to help bernie untie balloons... woz like so hard larh... den went backstage to play wif the bunny, or rabbit, or hare, whatever. den aft adriel n i went to the back of the ROL... taught him how to play god of wonders... i bet he forgot by now lah... but yah... den i remembered smth, n woz kinda hit by a wave of depression... so, sorry guyz for bein so perms n bein a loner k? i cldnt help it... sorry... den woz like walkin ard n playin all day on the electric....

den went for lunch wif adriel, bernie, kris, caryn, zeke etc.... ordered too much n we were like playin games to get the others to eat the food... haha... quite cool....

den i went to sam's hse wif him, adirel n my bro... played table-tennis... n i beat uncle hing lee!!!!! haha... den adriel n i lost in doubles.... but we make a good team k... haha... den he cracked us all up wif his farnie way of playing... haha.... sam n i were like laughin so hard... haha...

den here comes the horror part for me n adriel.... my bro n sam went to play touch...n we had to go along... den we found out dat we had totally nothing to do except sit around for about 2 hours... here the horror sets in... he wldn't let me play the games on his hp.... den we were like trying hard to find stuff to do... n like we were pondering whether or not to be very very impolite and ask auntie linda to fetch us back... den we decided against it cuz it wld be imposing on other ppl... den i woz clever, n used sam's towel as a pillow n lay on 3/4 of the bench to sleep.... i actually dozed off k... haha... poor adriel had to try n sleep sittin up... poor thing... but he told me dat he had fun watchin the gurls in the rugby team.... i shall not elaborate on wad he saw... haha... den a miracle happened.... uncle hing lee came... haha... n so did auntie linda.... den we walked to the car super stiff... haha... den auntie linda fetched us home... i relli thank God for helpin us get thro dat.... haha....

den din do much lah.... today woz boring... went to the audi to see the other classes present their president's challenge proposal... our class is tmr... haha... den went home lah... nth much.... fell asleep, den woke up a while ago to use the com... oh welll... i tink im gonna play electric to while away my sorrows... oh well...

i want to fall in love with you
i want to fall in love with you... ....

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you)

fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer
place your hand in mine
i'll leave when i wanna... ...

oh well... life is cruel... well, i guess its nice in some ways, but its more bad than good... 1st string for the electric broke while i woz pluckin lead halfway..... it woz so sad.... somemore i plugged the guitar into the DVD player in my mum's room n like woz playin the jars of clay cd at the same time.... sigh.... now i cant pluck all the higher notes for lead, n its so inconvinient when u hav to slide all the way up the fretboard to reach the high notes... argh.... but at least i got the hang of the 7th-fingering thingy dat sam tot me.... gettin quite pro at it... haha... oh well... no one's online now... mum n dad jus left for bangkok..... my sis went for the 830 service.... bro is still sleeping... i guess i'll go for the 1030service lah... den aft dat i got worship pract for the sunrise service... oh well.... kinda tired lah... i dunno y i got up early to use the com... oh well.... im still pondering whether or not to go to church early n like jus sit ard b4 the service... oh well... i tink i will lah.... but mebbe a while more 1st... btu dat means i hav to trust my bro to take the initiative to lock up the house... which i cant... hmmm... wtvr lar... im jus too sian/tired/depressed to tink... oh well... *sHrUgS*

Look to the past and remember her smile
And maybe tonight I can sleep for awhile
I'm not in the seat I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you... ...

oh wellz... lif sux? wtvr lah... cant be bothered anymore....

yest woz boring... as usual? yes.... jus went skool den had maths remedial... den went to zhao ming's house to collect the electric guitar... that joker is forever breaking strings one... i tink he anyhow strum one lah... but anyway, the 2nd string woz missing... so yah... when i went home i took out my old set of strings n used the 2nd string frm dat set... its an acoustic guitar string lor.... n its too short to reach the tuning machine for the 2nd string... so i relli had to configure the guitar around... changed the tuning machines for the 2nd and 3rd string... so now like dere's a criss-cross on the head.... haha... but when zhao ming finally buys the new strings again, den i will change the whole thing back again.... sigh... so leche... oh well... the cost of lazy frens... haha... jk...

today woz kinda sian too lah.... went for sports heats at VJC..... ran 200m.... underperformed like crazy... but still got under 29 secs lah... haha.... saw chris and joanne thong dere.... oh well.... den went to my fren's hse to do some hw den went home.... kinda boring lah... haha....

-this love has taken its toll on me, my heart is breaking in front of me...-

at sam's house now... kinda bored... he jus woke up... *finally* haha...

yest woz so-so lah... kinda sian... first i woke up late... as usual... weekend wad... haha... went for my class's president challenge thingy... we were washing cars at amberville.... den like i woz abt 30min late.... haha... i gave the excuse dat the bus took a long time to come... which woz true.... 31 olwez taked a long time to come one... haha... except that the main reason woz dat i left the house late... cuz like i woke up late, den had to bathe n eat lunch n everything, so yarh... den aft went for ML.... q ok lah.... the sandqiches were nice.... lettuce never tasted so nice... lol... den aft dat din do much except jansen kept grabbing me like a gay n i spent my time running away and dat amanda din do much help except carry my shoebag.... den i walked home for dinner n slept... haha...

today woz not bad... went to church early for the worship team prayer thing... my bro n i were late cuz my bro woke up late... met joanna walkin in.... so i guess we weren't relli v late lar... haha.... the worship woz not bad lah.... i tink that our worship team has the ability to do dat n betta, jus dat we need the... erm... drive? i dunno... haha.... but wtvr lah.... den aft service went to fellowship deck were john kept grabbing me n jasmine and natasha n elisa (dats how u spell it rit??) din help me get rid of him... oh well... haha... den went upstairs to teach elisa guitar... shes a fast learner... haha... den like we were slackin dere lah... din relli do much... den we went to ROL.... din do much either cuz dere woz nothin for me to do... oh well...

den my dad called me to go to sento to eat lunch... so i went... den like i found out dat sam, john, sean, paul adn auntie linda were going there for lunch too... so like durin lunch i persuaded my mum to let me go over to sam's hse... so like yah... here i am... we din do v much here lah... slacked like crazy... haha... i beat everyone in table-tennis.... *yay* haha... but i lost to uncle hing lee... hes good lah... lost abt 21-19... oh well..... den sean left, n i went up to the study room to find sam sleepin on the floor n john n paul playin gunbound... i tink its a lame game lah... haha... wtvr... den paul left... so john n i played cs... sam woz still sleepin... den like john left, and i stayed at sam's hse talkin to peepz online n stuff.... woz kinda bored...

i woz going to play guitar when sam woke up... den like i decided to blog lah... cuz john told me to update... so yah... haha.... gg to play sam's guitar now... bye guyz....

-i love you.-

dotz... im bored man... *yAwN* sowweee adriel... cant make the polka dots... but i'll change it to pink kay?? haha... i jus hope ppl dun mistake it for a gurl's blog.... haha....

wednesday woz ok lah... kinda boring except for training.... the wind woz a bit too strong for my liking... mebbe ard 15 knots... but can handle lah... haha... i jus hope inter-skool will have my favourite windspeed... haha... went home pretty shack, but den again i always do, especially aft training... oh wellz....

thursday... one of the better days of my week... though it could be better, for certain reasons... had sports day heats aft skool... so i went wif my fren to vjc early to eat... den waited awhile to digest the food, den went onto the track to warm up... i borrowed jansen's spikes... the mega MD one... haha... 1st we had two warm-up laps ard the track... ran wif the track ppl... we were like laughing and joking the whole way through... the sec 1s so extra... go and run so fast... crazee man... only warm-up rite?? haha... den went to stretch... all in alll my whole warm-up took abt 45min... quite moderate lah... haha.... den we went to watch the sec 1s do their 100m... den aft dat did short sprints and acceleration starts... den went to do the heats... i did quite well for my heats lar.... came in 3rd... behind jansen and shannon... even though i prolly came up ard 4th lah... as in started ard 4th, as my fren told me... zhao ming got 4th, but he woz quite some distance behind me... i tink i prolly got ard 13.7 lah... its not bad for a non-track-n-field guy... but i felt dat i cld hav ran betta... there woz a super strong crosswind man... while i woz runnin the wind woz like super loud in my ears.... haha.... 2H got top 3 for my heat... lol... the teacher in charge of recordin the results woz like kinda surprised when we three stepped up to record the results, cuz like we were the jokers of the class... haha... always piss him off one... lol...

400m heats woz also ok lah.... they anyhow randomly select the lanes one... i wanna die man... the teacher woz like SO SUPER bias man... he gave all the cross-country ppl the 3rd lane.... den he gave me 8th lane... i almost died when he pointed at me... LAST lane lor.... its like super hard to run lor... the turn is so shallow, its v hard to keep the speed... sigh.... so like at the gun, i woz like at 1st quite shiok lor... cuz i started in front... haha... den on the 1st curve, can hear the other ppl's footsteps, den can see the cross-country ppl fly past me.... its like super freaky lor... dat guy is like flying man.... in the end at the last straight i woz neck and neck wif the track n field hurdler guy fighting for 4th.... i prolly beat him by a few cm... my fren said it woz cuz i dipped earlier... haha... not bad lar.... my fren said i got 68secs... dats my personal best!!! haha... my 2nd fastest time is like only 73secs lor... haha... im quite happy... in spite of running last lane.... not bad... haha... but dat means dat if i run like 3rd lane i'll get faster rite?? haha... its God's blessing in disguise man.... but i woz wearin spikes, so mebbe dats y i woz faster... but wtvr lar... got 5sec improvement i happy liao... haha... den stayed back wif my frens for a while to watch the jumps and javelins den went home on 31 wif zhao ming... haha...went home super tired....

today woz a bit sian... went for training... saw auntie dot and ariel at the centre while i woz walkin out to launch... den like had a storm comin, n like it started rainin, so we were kinda happy... tot dat dere wldnt be training... den like our coach asked us to got out cuz got a bit of wind... so we all groaned... but yah... so we went out... wind woz like super light lor... somemore current so strong... almost died out at sea man... took forever to reach the mark... den all of a sudden it started raining... den we were like B@#$!% H#$%!!!!! haha... so we went back... the rain fell like hail man... so pain... den v cold... oh well.... den had a super long hot bath at the centre... haha.... so nice... lol.... den crapped wif my frens for a while, den went to my frens hse for a while... he stay super near me one... haha... den went to cut my hair, den went home... so tired now... and i kinda screwed up my haircut... cuz i wanted it super short, den like accidentally told my barber to cut the back a bit short too... but yarh... it look ok lah... but its a bit different frm my usual hairstyle, so dun get too shocked... haha...

-thanks fir being my source of help all this while...-