evermore my heart
my heart will say
above all
i live for your glory
even if my world falls, i'll say
above all
i live for your glory

yest woz ok i gez... played for worship... electric finally... but i still havent got my OWN electric. sighs. anyway. aft dat went to bedok corner for lunch wif adriel n sam. den adriel came my hse.. played cs/lf2/molez. darn fun... cuz im so good at those games but hes not... haha... SORRY ADRIEL! bwahaha... den went running wif joanna and adriel... joanna has determination man... haha... den aft dat we dropped her off at her hse... adriel woz so determined to stop running... but i pulled him along n he had no choice but to run... happened lyk 2 times... haha..

today i had to go for remedial in skool. sigh. who goes for remedial during the holidays??!! argh. den like had to run from the dicipline master cuz i woz wearin orange laces n ankle socks... haha... den came home... slacked lyk crazy... played com lyk crazy... haha.. den went to watch shrek 2 wif kor... woz darn farnie... haha.. den we stood outside courts to watch resident evil... den went home lahs.

tomorrow i have to wake up early... hav to pick up charmaine, den drop my bro off at skool, den go sam's hse... den go for church camp!!! haha... gonna be fun man... while my bro is in con camp... haha... study camp... lols... well, see ya guys... gonna play my guit one last time b4 i leave... haha

all day
all day now
all day... ...

boring days. holidays. the same thing? i dunno...

yest woz nth much lahs... had skool... den had to go for training... so irritating... last day of school still hot training... sighz... but inter-school's coming up... so must train hard... cannot underperform like last year.. if not my teacher mite not send me for competitions n give me the priveleges dat a gd sailor has... but im relli improving better lah... but im just too light... sigh... cant handle the big sail in 15 knot plus wind... sigh... n my feet are pain, sore, and have abrasions on them for hiking out too much. sighs. aft training i went for worship pract, den went to bedok corner for supper b4 going home wif adriel...

today i woke up at 10.30... pretty surprising... i usually wake up at 12 on saturdays.. haha... manage to catch teenage mutant ninja turtles on TV... so cool man... now dey're like in this alien planet... haha.. n master splinter has been abducted... lol... but michelangelo rox the most.. haha... den had pasta for lunch.. went cycling wif shaun and stefan aft dat... quite fun lah... but i hav to fine-tune my bike... its kinda horrible now... oh well... den had a relli cool feast for dinner wif my family... pizza hut+KFC delivery to our house... supa nice man... especially those sweet and spicy drumlets... haha..

tmr is worship day.. i finally get to play electric... but i cant do all the nice effects... cuz i got to play rhythm for some songs... cuz zhao ming's guitar cant be heard... oh well... im going orange crazee tmr... orange long sleeve, oraneg tee inside, n i jus changed my shoelaces to orange too... haha... cya guyz tmr... *waves*

for eternity... YEAH!!!

fine. i didn't do well in my exams. fine. i get criticized for gettin 50. while the rest of the class fails. n u tell me borderline is not good. thanx man. i get shit for getting 50. everyone else fails!! has the thought of "THE PAPER IS HARD" ever crossed your mind? so u say i did not put in enough effort. i worked my ass off. crapped up. chinese sux. half of my class dropped down from GEP chinese. cuz the class woz disbanded. i got thrashed in CA1. now i finally manage to beat them. and u say jus cuz i get 50, its not good anymore. im not sayin i shld be praised. i jus say dat i shldnt be criticized for it. crap lar. u say i shld compare against myself, not against others. i already outdid myself by PASSING the BLOODY HARD paper. everyone else failed. i did good enuf to pass. now i get shit. for doing better than others. its not yr fault at all. mebbe my standards are not as high as yours. but i jus wanna tell u. n i hope u understand. that im not posting this to get back at u, but im posting this to let u noe how i feel. im sorry.

sorry.

sigh.
money.
argh!!!
im broke.
i dun even hav money to watch movies now.
let alone buy a
mp3
fender telecaster/strat
or even a plain electric
plus amps
and strings
and effetcs pedals
sigh.

and i don't wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you.
i don't wanna talk about it
and i don't want a conversation, i just wanna cry in front of you.
i don't wanna talk about it, cuz' i'm in love with you.

one C6.
two C5s.
one B4.
four A1s.

i feel like some goondu. my L1R5/MSG/average wld prolly hav been gd wif the 4 A1s. den i dun get an A2, no B3, the nxt grade is B4. blardee hell. i dropped... average is now 64.57.. crap lar... screwed up totally... argh... i've gotta start studyin earlier nxt time... sigh...

C6 -> chinese
C5s -> history
-> lit
B4 -> maths
A1 -> science
-> D&T
-> english
-> art

argh... i whacked the whole class in english.. in spite of me havin screwed up my compo... i had to restart the whole thing cuz i realised i woz writing too long... rushed like crazy... oh well... one of my worst performances for english, but i still got top... *shrugs* wad can i say? haha... oh wellz... screwed up me..

friday woz tiring... had to go skool... got bk my chinese paper... i actually got 48.5, but since my teacher is also my sailing teacher, she gave me a sympathy mark n i got 49.5... so 50 lor... pass... haha... den had training... screwed up totally larhx... giba mite be angry at me... i nv screwed up my starts so much... totally misread the current, n it woz so strong... i started like 2nd last... den in the end only crawled back to 3rd.. sigh... i tink mr oh is angry at me... he mite kick me out if i continue to be like dat... sigh... im totally not performing lah... aft trg went to RGS choir concert thingy... went wif the musks... lol... quite fun lah... but it woz kinda hot... haha... mebbe it woz me... lol... saw a few of my frens dere... bwahaha..

saturday my dad din allow me to go X-games... wanted to cycle dere... so pissed lor... sigh... sundae woz ok i gez... nth much lah... aft church went for lunch at century square... den adriello came over... went cycling, den went his hse for dinner... n a swim lah, of course... haha...

today i got bk my results lor... so sad... sigh... den went my fren hse play Unreal Tournament... im actually quite good... haha.. den came home lah... wanted to go cycling again but dis time my mum din let me... sigh... wanted to practice my wheelies... oh well..

-love?-

*plays the 'THAT THING YOU DO!' riff*

yea... i cant wait for the song? i dunno mannz... whenz the recording gonna start??!! haha... oh well... today had floorball for post-exam activities... my team made to semis but got knocked out... sigh... lost to all the hockey players... the thing was, our team din hav any subs!! haha... cool eh? i woz the sweeper... how indispensible i am... haha... went to TM aft dat... bot the jamie cullum cd for kor... hope he likes it... oh well... den we went lookin to buy new laces... but TM din sell... so sad... den went all the way back to PP to buy the laces... sigh... a wasted trip... i cld hav got the cd at PP too!!! darn... oh wellz... den went home... slacked for awhile b4 gg for cycling by myself... my skids are perfect now... haha... i can even use it to turn sharp corners.. so pro eh? haha... den i met edlyn while cycling along the road outside church... she woz wif her skool.... dey were running while she woz slackin on the bike... haha... oh well... my biking skills are getting much better now... thank you Lord!!! haha... i jus need to master my wheelie... i cant seem to keep the wheel in the air for more than 7seconds... oh well...

'cause it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if i know you you're doing that thing
every day just doing that thing
i can't take you doing that thing you do... ...

hmmm. feel like blogging but im jus too lazy lah.. anyway, i had inter-class soccer for post-exam activities today in skool... 5-a-side... gez wad? i woz GOALIE!!! muahaha... i woz actually quite good leh... saved a penalty... only let in two goals... muahaha... not bad eh? tmr got floorball... mebbe i'll wear my grey shirt tmr... hmmm... oh well... so sian...

thought that i was going crazy
just having one those days yeah
didn't know what to do
then there was you

and everything went from wrong to right
and the stars came out to fill up the sky
the music you were playing really blew my mind
it was love at first sight

'cause baby when i heard you
for the first time i knew
we were meant to be as one...

was tired of running out of luck
thinking 'bout giving up yeah
didn't know what to do
then there was you

and everything went from wrong to right
and the stars came out to fill up the sky
the music you were playing really blew my mind
it was love at first sight

'cause baby when i heard you
for the first time i knew
we were meant to be as one...

baby when i heard you
for the first time i knew
we were meant to be as one...

everything went from wrong to right
and the stars came out and filled all the sky
the music you were playing really blew my mind
it was love at first sight
love at first sight
love at first sight
love...
ouhh, it was love, it was love at first sight

'cause baby when i heard you
for the first time i knew
we were meant to be as one...

'cause baby when i heard you
for the first time i knew
we were meant to be as one...
it was love, it was love, it was love, it was love

ouhh, it was love, it was love, it was love, it was love
ouhh, it was love, it was love, it was love, it was love... ...

it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
it's a beautiful day

praise the Lord... thanks so much Lord!!! i love you!!

what you don't have, you don't need it now
what you don't know, you can feel it somehow
what you don't have, you don't need it now
don't need it now
it's a beautiful day

well... jus came back chalet/cheam camp/church/lunch/sleep/never go soccer/dinner...
hmm... had lotsa fun during the weekend except for some stuff lah...

cheam camp woz supa sad larh... supposed to go watch TROY and like mebbe visit deb, but we overslept... super sad... oh wellz... some things jus happen... den today 'driel n i went home first before going church... thank God auntie linda woz nice enuf to wait for us to bathe n stuff... if not i would sure be super late... cuz i cldn't cycle there cuz i wld be wearing long pants... oh well... in the end we were only a few minutes late lah... after caregroup i jus hung around for a while, played rugby, tried jumping on high stacks of chairs etc... quite lame lah... den aft dat went for lunch wif my family n adriel... den went home n slept... woz supposed to wake up at 3.45 to go play soccer, but when i woke up it woz already 5.30... ooops? haha... so in the end din go lah... den went bk to sleep n only woke up at 10 for my dinner... haha

life sux.. totally... im virtually losing all my friends... n they're all close friends... i gez wad uncle james said during caregroup today woz rite... it IS your close freinds that hurt you the most... sigh... i can't believe i lost two of my best friends due to tired, pissed off feelings and stuff... im sorry k? but during the individual times i pissed u people off, i woz tired, depressed, n woz stretched to the limit... u were probably jus being yourself, while i wasn't... i relli regret everything now... how i wish i jus din blow so easily... they say actions speak louder den words, n dats so true.. its quite obvious u can't stand me anymore, n wld rather talk to other people den me, even though i was sitting rite nxt to u... u wldn't even say hi.. i feel so crapped up.. i tried my best to be a good friend, but i gez i jus can't make the cut.. i lost all my hard work trying to be your friend in just a few seconds... u were my best friends... n now i've lost you... u probably won't feel it, cuz u hav lots of other great frens... i probably nothing to you... u still hav lots of other friend to turn to, to consult, to have fun with... for me, YOU were that friend.. n now i've lost it all... now i've got nothing... nothing at all...

i wake up in the morning
put on my face
the one that's gonna get me
through another day
doesn't really matter
how I feel inside
this life is like a game sometimes

then you came around me
the walls just dissapeared
nothing to surround me
keep me from my fears
i'm unprotected
see how I've opened up
you've made me trust

i've never felt like this before
i'm naked around you
does it show
you see right through me
and i can't hide
i'm naked around you
and it feels so right

trying to remember
why I was afraid
to be myself
and let the covers fall away
guess I never had someone like you
to help me fit in my skin

i'm naked around you
does it show
i'm naked around you

i'm so naked around you
and i can't hide
you're gonna see right through... ...

-thanks for everything-

i need you
i need you
i need you... ...

HAPPIE B'DAE KOR!!! sorry... i owe u a pressie yeahz?

hmmm. at sams's hse now.... exams are over... finally... thank God... oh wellz... yest had the chalet thingy for my bro's b'dae... kinda cool larhx... skool ended at 9, so i went TM for a while... met up wif adriel dere... had breakfast den went home... he came over larh... i taught him some new stuff on the guitar lah... den i packed my bag for the chalet... den went his hse to help him pack.... den we went to bernie's hse... she woz shiftin back in, so like we helpedher clean up the place larh... cleaned the windpws n grills n stuff... den went back n forth between auntie mabel's hse n her hse to help her shift stuff... quite fun lah, but jus a bit dusty... n dirty... oh wellz... den aft dat we took bus to the chalet wif charmaine... at the chalet we din relli do much except sit around and chat n laugh n joke abt stuff larh... at the same time watching the TV... cuz like my bro's classmates were there too, n we didn't noe dem, so like we kept to ourselves larh... din do much anyway... aft dat had BBQ, den went walkin ard before gg back to the chalet n playin cards... played mummy... darn fun... heex. woke up kinda early today considering how late we slept, den did some stuff before coming to sam's hse... going to watch troy later... oh wellz.

-sorry-

everythings changin' when i turn around,
all out of my control,
im a mobile
everythings changin' out of what i know,
everywhere i go,
im a mobile

hmm. nth much these days.. cant go online much either... not dat anyone wld wanna talk to me larhx.

jus had a bath. went to church to study wif adriello + jolencia.. darn lame larh... mishca barton... hmmm... oh wellz.. missed OC last nite... fell asleep... sighs... sorry abby... heex. my bike is kinda screwed nowadays... my back wheel is a tad wobbly... mite hav to send for repair... but shld be ok for now lah... tightened my front and back wheel... darn nice now... n im gettin the hang of doin wheelies... thnx to shaun... nana banana... oh wellz... nth much larh.. hav to go study merchant of venice.. lit paper on monday.. sighs...

are you gonna be my gurl?

woke up early this morning, made my coffee like i always do.
then it hit me from nowhere, everything i feel about me and you.
the way you kiss me crazy, baby you're so amazing.

seven days and seven nights of thunder,
the waters rising and i'm slipping under.
i think i fell in love with the 8th world wonder.

i guess that i'm just falling deeper into something i've never known.
but the way that i'm feeling, makes me realize that it can't be wrong.
you're love's like a summer rain, washing my doubts away.

seven days and seven nights of thunder,
the waters rising and i'm slipping under.
i think i fell in love with the 8th world wonder.

it's only been a week, but it's coming over me.
it's making me believe that you're the one for me.

seven days and seven nights of thunder,
the waters rising and i'm slipping under.
i think i fell in love with the 8th world wonder... ...

hmmm. exams are coming.. nth to do. except study. listenin to "history maker" by hillsong london... kewl song..

i'm gonna stand, i'm gonna run
into your arms, into your arms again
i'm living for you... ...

oh wellz. thursdae. went to church again to study. as usual. den went home.. den went cycling wif adriel for a while at abt 6.30 plus... wanted to top up my ez-link card but cldn't cuz of the rain.. so we went to adriel's carpark to cycle... it woz relli dangerous... cuz like we were speeding dwon the hill wif a car behing us, and like the road woz super wet... i braked n my back tyre lost traction... skidded for at least 10 metres... adriel woz behing me, n he said i almost collided wif the car... oh wellz... den while gg down the ramp into adriel's carpark, my back tyre lost traction again n i skidded down the ramp all the way... oh wellz... den we did skids, n front tyre-lifting... i gez u cant call it a wheelie cuz the front tyre wasnt in the air for very long... it woz like so easy to skid on the wet+super smooth carpark floor... adriel fell n slid along the ground wif his bike for at least one metre... cuz he woz comin down the ramp, and when he turned, he hit a puddle den the whole bike slid from underneath him... he woz so proud of that fall... den like when i woz jus simply turning around, i skidded on a wet puddle n the whole bike fell from underneath me... i like jumped clear and the bike slid along the floor... oh well... but we had fun lar... relli cool...

fwidae. went to church for a while to study, den tagged along for a while for drum pract. left after a while lah.. den went cycling on my own n practiced my skidding, curb hopping and jumping... but din relli have the mood n like i got sian after a while larh. den went for a haircut before gg for worship pract... oh well... den i jus went home aft dat n din do anythin ekse...

today... woke up at 12.19pm. jus in time for lunch. but i ate breakfast instead.. den i went to study, n ate lunch at abt 3... den went to cycle wif stefan... adriel joined us aft a while... den we went cold storage... met abby there... den like at the counter, adriel waved a condom pack at me while i woz adjusting my bike... stefan said the woman woz starin at him... hahas. then stefan n i zoomed back to church, den when abby woz walkin in we went up n skidded right in front of her... haha... so kewl... i made lotsa tyre marks on the church carpark i tink... haha... den we had the closing session of ML... aft dat i played drums for a while, den went downstairs.... did stunts around the church carpark n had fun doing skids until my back brake came loose.. den it woz like i cldn't fix it dere lor... so cldn't do anymore skids... sighs. den went cycling home wif adriel n stefan... oh wellz... din do much aft dat lahs. i jus finished typing dunno how many pages worth of history notes, n i havent even done 1/50 of it... sigh...

where are you and i'm so sorry
i cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you... ...

-you rawk-