so she said what's the problem baby
what's the problem i don't know
well maybe i'm in love
think about it every time
i think about it
can't stop thinking 'bout it
how much longer will it take to cure this
just to cure it cause i can't ignore it if it's love
makes me wanna turn around and face me but i don't know nothing 'bout love

hmmm. realise i havent been talkin abt wad's been happenin in my life. sunday woz ok i gez... woke up early to go for worship pract. kor din go church. cellgroup woz kinda useless lah. din do much. i tink dat without uncle sin chee our class is kinda... dead. no offense unc james! but yah. den din do much lah. dropped my guit off wif mummy, den went out for lunch at parkway wif bern, mei, ivan, ivee, 'driel!went to whatafish. haha. 'driel n i bot the same boardshorts!!! haha. went to see mei's workplace too. so slack one. haha. somemore earn so much. lol. den took bus back. supposed to go cycling, but 'driel fell asleep. nvm lah.

im accidentally in love... ...

skool started liao. supa sad. monday woz ok lah. teachers were lyk so... eeyer. everyone said i was a freak, wif my supa peeling arms. haha. white balck everywhere. im darker den the malays i my class. bwahaha. tmr got training... the 2nd last training before inter-skool. den i have some course on friday. the same day as my last training before competition. so pissyfying. i tink im gonna pontang it for training. the last training before inter-skool is always the most important. haha.

come on, come on
turn a little faster
come on, come on
the world will follow after
come on, come on
cause everybody's after love

love. the most important element God stresses on. not only the attraction for a gurl, but also love between friends, love for family members, even strangers and people dat u dunno. especially people in need. whom u dunno. the attraction for a gurl thing is not so important at our age. the one for people in need is lyk veri important. i olwez feel very sad for those poor handicapped baskers trying to earn money. heartbreak for them. so poor thing. kinda makes u treasure wad u have. the love for family members should always always be there. actually all of them have to always be there, but yah. mummy always stresses to me dat friends are only temporary, and dat family members will always always be there for you. hmmm. not necesarily true. but i agree. family members are very very important. hiews, jus to let u ppl noe, i relli thank God for bringing u peepz into my life kay?? haha. u too flops. den we come to love for friends. as a note, dis is not in order, as in lyk all are important, and not dat one is more important den the other. friends. i've heard lots of people say dat if u have conflicts between friends, and arguements etc, u shld make up, and it will strengthen your relationship. dats pretty true. haha. well, all of u cool people out dere hu are my friends, i jus wanna say dat if i hav hurt u in any way, im sorry, and i thank God for u guyz being in my life kay? i jus hope our friendship will always always last yea? haha.

so i said i'm a snowball running
running down into the spring that's coming all this love
melting under blue skies
belting out sunlight
shimmering love
well baby i surrender
to the strawberry ice cream
never ever enter all this love
well i didn't mean to do it
but there's no escaping your love

u did yr best
u were super nice
too nice
im too far gone to be helped k?

dont waste your time on me
you're already
the voice inside my head

im sorry k?
i wish dis din hav to happen
screwed up idiots lyk me
crap lar.

sorry.

you rawk my world.

does no one trust me?
cant u believe me when i say i can do it?
cant all u horrible people out there believe me?
maybe its me.
maybe i dun have self-belief to do smth.
den why cant i trust myself?
i only know one person who relli trusts me.
thats GOD.
thank you Lord.
but why is it dat things jus dun happen?
no one trusts me.
not even myself.
self-confidence sux.
sigh.
screwed up life.
everyone is lyk oh-so pro.
sigh.

thank you Lord.

i lay my life down at your feet
'cause you're the only one i need
i turn to you and you are always there

hmmm. nth much i gez. went sam's house yest.. supposed to go there study but ended up staying over too.. haha. watched two great shows... one's a samurai-ninja show... pretty farnie... haha. the swordfights are pretty cool, and there's lots of blood... haha. the bandits also always self-jack and accidentally injure each other... haha. the other one's the OC!!!! *yAaY* marissa and summer lyk so totally rawk lor. haha. so supa chio. today woz supposed to go trg but in the end i din go... haha. jus basically slakced the whole day away... jus came bk from worship pract. yupyupyup.

are you gonna be my girl?

pEt-->im good at honeyball kay... haha.
aBbY-->you rawk!!! =P

you are the way the truth and the light
we'll live by faith and not by sight
for you, we're living all for you

hmmmm. cannot be sad. cannot be depressed. yupyupyup.

today woz tiring. as in both physically and mentally. first i went to the dentist to get my bite plate. to keep my teeth in place. mite hav to go for braces pretty soon. oh wellz. den i went for training. stupid wind so strong... sigh. hike out until i almost got a cramp in my thigh. so i lyk kinda slacked for the rest of the races. got ard lyk 2nd overall... i tink... my skool has a pretty good chance in the inter-skools i tink. but i wont be able to do anything to help. too lousy. sigh. i seem to suck in everything. oh wellz. den i went home, supa supa tired. my bro wanted to go running. dat bugger dragged me out of bed n forced me to go. so argh. den he complained cuz i took so logn to stretch. sigh. now im supa supa supa tired. see lar kor!!!! haha.

holidays are ending soon. havent done my homework, havent done my book report. oh wellz. n rite now im faced wif some relli big n tough questions. oh wellz.

girls dont lyk boys girls lyk cars and money

no one cares.
or do they?
haiz.
i seem to be failing in everything dat i ATTEMPT to do.
whatever.

sigh.

there's a piece of you that's here with me
it's everywhere i go it's everything i see
when I sleep i dream and it gets me by
i can make believe that you're here tonight...
that you're here tonight...

its over. sob. i got 61. CRAP!!!! argh. i bld've gotten lyk 58? i shldn't hav retired my last race. sigh. jus cuz of dat i lost to lyk 3 ppl... by TWO FRIKIN POINTS!! crap! sigh. damn pissed wif myself. n i dunno why im so angry at not havin done better. sigh. mebbe i wanna impress her. aiya wadeva lah.

you rawk.

gg bintan tmr.. so i cant go to church n show u ppl how black i am.. haha. oh wellz. my mum sez im charcoal. my sis sez im jus supa black. my bro sez "u are bunsen ar!". oh wellz. amanda sez im v black. hmmmm. i cant be dat bad rite? if not i'll be lyk adriel, skin peeling everywhere. oh wellz.

if i could find you now things would get better
we could leave this town and run forever
let your waves crash down on me and take me away

im black. yay? i dunno. sighhhzzzz. now my position is 67. so lousy. argh man. im seriously out of my prime in sailing already. so pissed. n i cant control the blardee strong wind! crap man. its jus so pissifying to be hiking out so hard yet the dumb boat just cant flatten out. sigh. pray for me kay?? thnx so much... u guyz rawk.

i jus realised roxy is actually quite a kewl brand... hmm.

new kids on the block had a bunch of hits
chinese food makes me sick
and i think its fly when girls
stop by for the summer,for the summer
i like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch
i'd take her if I had one wish
but she's been gone since that summer,
since that summer

burnt. today woz the first day of the 5day regatta dat i hav to endure. so sunburnt. sigh... so tired too... i got 63 out of 108 so far. dats lyk oh-so supa lousy pousy. argh. im relli underperforming... i hav the potential, jus dat i cant exploit it... argh. i tink i'll go sleep now. tired. got long day tmr too. nite nite.

i like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch.

these are the days worth livin'
these are the years we're given
and these are the moments
these are the times
let's make the best out of our lives

ah. finally found out how to do dat moving words things dat pet olwez does on her blog... haha.. today woz a day of ultimate.. erm... crazy. bwahaha. like my bro lyks to say, SINGH. im not racist kay? haha.

started off by waking up crazily early for a sunday. 7.30 am. sigh. cuz mum had to go to church early to prepare her class or smth liddat. so i took my time walking up to ROL, den stood outside there waiting for sam and john to turn up.. they came, n we slacked in john for a while. i think it would be best for me not to describe what happened out there here. if u wanna noe, ask sam, john or me. den we went to judah for a while, den decided to go to orchard. so we took the train all the way there... sat outside the cinema at lido in front of the big screen to watch the trailers to some movies... den we went to borders opposite to kill time... went back to lido, and ate KFC/pizza hut for lunch. sam cldn't finish his food. i woz v cold. den went to watch Day After Tomorrow... not bad show i must say.. haha... quite nice actually. den when the scene changed to that of the reporter in New Delhi, sam started laughing at the guy's farnie accent. den a lot of ppl turned around lor... i woz sitting nxt to him. so paiseh. throughout the movie he woz giggling n stuff... rite sam? haha... den aft the movie he had an ultimate jack... as he stood up, he upset his drink, and it lyk spilt all over the seat in front... Thank God there woz no one there... so we hurridly walked away... haha... den we went to taka to meet abby and joanna. so irritating. made me waste so many of my msges. i woz like so pissed. sigh. met in kino... den we lyk walked up and down taka trying to figure out wad to do... went to kino, den went to buy sam's ice cream, den went up to the library, den went to the piano/guitar place, etc etc...

HAR HAW. HAR HAR HAR HAR.

quite sian lah. den went to wisma to sit at macs and read sam's rugby magazine/play worms on john's fone. there woz a whole table nxt to us dat woz empty for a while lor. sigh. aft dat went home. so tired. den the train took lyk so long. argh. den had to walk up the hill to go home. so tired. din do much aft dat lah... played com and slacked... den i watched Bend It Like Beckham... haha... darn farnie!!!! my bro woz laughing all the way at the Indian family... haha.... the turban father woz like so darn super farnie... haha... den aft dat i went to the airport to fetch dad... so cool... finally came home aft a while... haha... den came home. lol.

even if hope was SHATTERED
i know it wouldn't matter
these are the moments
these are the times
let's make the best out of our lives

the remedy is the experience.
this is a dangerous liaison
i say the comedy is that it's serious.
this is a strange enough new play on words
i say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
the rest of your nights with the light on
so shine the light on all of your friends
when it all amounts to nothing in the end... ...

hmmm. i missed teenage mutant teenage turtles today. sigh... woke up at 11.45 den i saw the reminder on my fone... argh.... alarm clocks all fail to wake me up... haha... did totally nth dis week... sigh...

friday is prolly the only day to talk abt lah... went for trg... wind woz pathetic... sigh.. den the cat. high buggers took all the big sails so i had to take a pathetic, lousy, small junior sail... giving me almost no practice with the big sail... somemore got regatta nxt tuesday.... argh... but the training itself woz ok lah... we joined up with cat. high, mayflower and some optis... optis take forever to start... haha... so many general recalls... super sad lah... i woz using junior sails... den the cat. high and mayflower all take big sails... got totally whacked.... best performance woz only 3rd... sigh... all the stupid dumb big sails block all my wind... somemore they all accelerate so super irritatingly fast. sigh. impossible to win one. but i tink i got a chance in regatta and inter-scholl against them lah... all of them are noobs lor... haha... i have a regatta on next tuesday... my teacher is making me use the super super new VS boat... VS04... its totally brand new... never used before... how is he expecting me to perform in a BRAND NEW boat? the sail will be like so super crispy lor... too much for me to sail... n i need to get familiarised with the boat lor... sigh... sure die one.. somemore its a 5-day regatta... gonna have 15 races altogether... sure die one... sigh.

today woz a total bore. din do anything except play computer, read n watch TV. sigh... wanted to go cycling in the evening but in the end got too lazy and din go... sigh. tmr go out? i dunno. oh wellz.

i won't worry my life away
i won't worry my life away... ...

'cause all you are,
is all i want
always
draw me close
in your arms
oh God
i wanna be with You... ...

hmmm. boring days.

monday woz boring. din do anything at all... totally zit... except mebbe go cycling for a while... oh wellz... tuesday woz pretty interesting... went to see the dentist... ok mebbe dats not so interesting... haha... i tink im gonna hav to wear braces for like one year... sighs... den went for lunch wif mum, dad and sis at pasta fresca... ate fucilli bolognese... supa full... haha... den went home, n fixed my sis's bike n another bike... quite fun lah... testing out the brakes etc... oh wellz... den went cycling for a while b4 gg to east coast to cycle... wif my family... i saw her... den had to wait in the car to guard the bikes while my family ate at the hawker centre... cuz we forgot to bring locks.... sighs.... den went home lah. today. my mum woke me up at 11.20. i had training at 11.30... den like my mum woz rushing me like crazy so i had to run around the house grabbin my lifejacket etc... den went to hong han's hse to pick him up b4 gg to the sailing centre... sigh. in the end, it stormed like crazy... din go out to sea at all. argh! had to wait in the sailing centre for like two and a half hours.... sigh... so aft dat went to my fren's hse for a while b4 walking home... adriel came over... molez galore... played until i got so bored of it n my eyes almost blew out... had to beg him to stop playing... haha... den we slacked in my room until like 8... den adriel went home... ate dinner n watched punk'd at the same time... haha... darn farnie... lol...

im bored. anyone wanna go out wif me?

-i love you, more than life-

if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need
you are
and if the world caved in around me
to you i'll still hold on
'cause you're all that i believe
and the one who created me
jesus, because of you
im free
im free!!!

hmmmm. came back from church camp... shan't elaborate too much, if not my entry will be too long... bwahaha.

DAY minus ONE
woke up early... picked up maine, den went to sam's place... slacked for a while, played his fender, den went to the birdie parkie... met everyone, then started the long drive down... fell asleep, but like the road woz so bumpy so i kept waking up again... dropped our bags at the hotel, then went for lunch with the whole big group...we put ginger, garlic n lotsa green n red chili in maine's tea... haha... den went back to the hotel.. met 'veen, glenn, the pastors and auntie esther... den we checked out the pool... omigosh... its the horriblest pool u cld eva see... like 'veeen said, its like a candy bar in the pool... its supa cloudy, has lots of wrappers inside, n dere are even cigarette buds in floating there... sighs... din do much aft dat lahs... went to the room n steamed wif sam... he brot his ipod n speakers, so like it woz relli cool... den went down to play tennis... den went out for dinner again b4 going back to the hotel... den like cuz our room had tons of food n music everyone kept coming... hahas... so fun.

DAY ONE
woke up, for auntie linda to tell us that the water pipe burst and there was NO water. LOVELY!!! haha... so cldn't bathe... 'veen and glenn came over... listened to music for a while n steamed n ate and got fat... den auntie linda popped in and told us the wtaer woz back to normal... so 'veen and glenn ran back to their room to bathe... den 2 min later when sam n i were still getting our stuff 'veen asked me to go to his room to look at the bathtub... the water woz DARK BROWN. as in literally... its worse than the sea... crap man!! i rather have no water... so we din bathe at all. sigh. so false alarm.den went for the special lunch, den went back to the hotel... pet came over, n put her flower ring on my sheep's ear... looks quite cool... haha... i still havent return her... den we steamed until it woz time for dinner... went to eat, den had worship n lessons... the room woz like so cold... lucky i brot my long sleeve. aft teaching we went back to the room n steamed until we slept... so sad... auntie linda put a curfew on us... 11 o' clock!! dats like so early lor!!! somemore it woz raj's b'dae... din get to go to the party... im like so disappointed lor...

DAY TWO
barely woz able to wake up. so tired from the previous day. had worship, den teaching again as usual.. we din hav anything to do during the workshop, cuz it woz not for us... so we basically slacked like dogs... den we fell asleep... and gez wad?? we OVERSLEPT.. so we missed a bit of worship... haha... lucky judy woz fine wif it... jus told us not to do it again... den pet asked for my long sleeve... cuz she say at nite v cold... so i gave it to her... den i borrowed her roxy windbreaker in return... its like too small for me... the sleeves are ok, but its jus simply too short... but it keeps me warm, so i gez its ok... quite cool actually... a guy wearing roxy... new fashion statement... haha..den at nite daniel, sam, aramissssssssssssssssssssss and i took a walk aroung the pond... quite cool, cuz the pond is like quite big, n had two bridges... but it being malaysia, the planks on the bridges are unstable, and one had of them had no wooden railings on one side... bwahaha.. but it woz nice nonetheless... cuz it woz so dark and freaky... den u get cobwebs in your face... haha.

DAY THREE
OVERSLEPT AGAIN. we rock eh? missed a bit of worship which woz at 8.30... haha... we like were so tired lorz... lol... so aft aft worship had teaching again, den lunch... den dere woz dis free time to go shopping... now i regret not going.. cuz in the end i din do anything except slack in the room, which i can do anytime i want... sigh... i barely spent any money lor... could've bought more cool stuff... sigh... den we had worship, den teaching, den we went back to the room first... since it woz the last nite, we planned to stay up like super late... haha... so we went around first, being kris's 'bodyguards'... bwahaha... den i went to 'veen's room to play asshole taitee... so fun... i woz president all the way... bwahaha... den adriel n sam went away without me... left without me... im so hurt... so i went to jon's room to watch LEAGUE OF EXTRAORDINARY GENTLEMEN on VCD and play cards wif D and D and D... haha... daniel and deb and deb... lol.. as usual, i woz president all the way... haha... den i went back to 'veen's room... i woz the advisor for kris in asshole taitee... i helped her a lot lor... haha... den i had a massage, courtesy of bernie, jane and sam... bernie's one is nice... sam's is so hard... jane's is just spine cracking and butt slapping... but nice nonetheless... haha... everyone sez im too bony... i had to keep telling them not to use too much strength... haha... den lots of ppl went back, leaving stefan, glenn, jane, mei, and me... so fun... we played uno like crazy... everyone olwez intercepts my turn... sigh... i can never win dat game... n i woz like lying on my stomach on the bed next to mei, and jane kept slapping my butt. dat horrible butt slapper. haha.. den like we were so tired from laughing at glenn, cuz he woz jus so farnie... haha... so we went to sleep... but jane din let us sleep, cuz she woz like so super hyper... den we were like telling her to go n play hide n seek... we'd count, and she'd wait for us outside... haha... so lame man... we finally got her to sleep... den like mei, jane and i shared one bed... den like glenn and stefan had to share the bed which woz like breaking already... haha... but he ate durian, and like he woz burping and farting everywhere dat glenn chased him onto the small puny footstool... haha... by the time we slept it woz like 6.30 already... so fun.

DAY FOUR
woke up at 7.30. dat means we had one hours' worth of sleep... haha.. den like during worship we were like so super tired... bwahaha... den like there woz holy communion... adriel, mei and i were like so scared lor... cuz i woz wearing sandals, they were weraing slippers... den like we were all wearing boardshorts, n aramis n i had doodlings on our legs... it woz like so informal... haha... we wanted to go back n change, but in the end we din... so like i hid behind bernie all the way... no one saw... so lucky... haha... den aft dat we watched the children's performance... i tried to follow mei and do the hopelessly impossible dance... its like so fast lor... i only can do the chorus, which is the easiest part... hahah... den we had lunch, before i left in deb's car back to singapore... when we got back i stayed in deb's hse for a while n played the xbox with nicholas... i hav never played an xbox before... haha... but it woz fun lah... HALO... haha.. den i rushed back, and met corrine, bernie and mei in church before going for the Festival Of Praise... thank god my bro woz able to reserve seats for us... haha... thanks kor!!

radical worship. totally cool.. im amazed at the way hillsongs is able to bring up the atmosphere in the place... totally cool... i've never felt so good, except in JYC, agape and the hillsongs concert last year... haha... one way... totally radical. n the full band woz not dere somemore... haha... FLY!!! haha... aft dat we went to macs for a while, before i went home n slept...

TODAY
hmmm. woke up for church... so tired... aft church went for lunch wif sam, john n my bro... den went sam's hse for a while b4 gg for soccer.. played a slack game today lah... barely ran... haha... den jus came home n din do anythin else... oh wellz..

tmr raveen goes for army... bernie, mei, pet, josh n lots of other ppl going to cambodia pretty soon... pet's b'dae is on 10th june but she wont be around to celebrate it... so sad... oh well... i dunno wad to do tmr... nth to do at all... i shld be doing my holiday homework... but den again, i dun plan to... haha... wtvr lah... lol

just live your life
with God inside
you wont regret
one moment of it
and give all that u can
for God
for GOD!!!!!