its now again i find myself
so far down
away from the sun again

lovely song i shood sae. n i seem to have it in my head all the time. kinda appropriate fer me i tink. bwahaha. but ocean avenue still rox. lol. boring days. school school school. everyone tinks my chinese teacher is horribel. a china PRC i tink. dusen understand english one. haha. but den mebbe its not the teacher thats lousy, but the students. or mebbe she jus isnt used to having a class as rowdy as mine. my chinese class has all the horribel jokers. haha. the worst class i shood tink. and lyk to teacher gets o-so pent up when we din hand up our jian bao. haha. i only handed up mine two days late kay. at least i did it. haha. for once, i am on top of my homework. cuz my science teacher nv come today. den lyk had three free periods. my fren sez shes suffering from hypertension. eeyer. but yah. used the three periods to complete all my homework in spite of soccer balls flying around me and classmates walking around whacking you for fun. haha. cuz i borrowed my friend's nomad jukebox. wahaha. oh wellz.

tomorrow got training!! yes!!
pUnChEs fIsT iNtO tHe aIr
haha. im happie for a number of reasons. anyway all of a sudden im lyk so enthu about sailing. i wanna do well! i tink dat if i train hard i can thrash a lot of ppl. haha. but to really do well i must have lyk 10knot winds. cuz a lot of byte sailors only have the weight to control the boat. they got no technique one. not lyk me. so lyk i'll excel in not-so-strong winds. haha. so fun!

california!! here we come!! *screams to reach the high pitched note* haha.

yesterday woz the national track and field finals. whole school went down. on the way i lyk borrowed my friend's N-GAGE QD n woz lyk so engrossed in it. its lyk super nice lor. haha. there woz dis lyk 1st person shooter game called ashen. darn fun. haha. den lyk we went there, n lyk at first woz so hot. den it rained. everyone rushed downstairs den the teachers scolded us for running so fast. not lyk they got bags rite? anyway i stayed up there lah. den it stopped and everyone came back up. den it rained again. so stupid. but dis time we stayed up there lah. my school is crazy lor. forever cheering one. lost my voice. only got a bit. n it hurts to drink water. oh wellz. but quite fun lah. saw lots and lots of my friends running. haha. den aft dat walked to macs and KFC. 1st went to macs to get fries and nuggets cuz my friend's got vouchers. den went to KFC for the drinks wif free refill. so we were lyk eating macs in KFC. haha. den before we left we filled our bottles. haha. so jian. lol. den had to run for the 14. i feet were lyk super sore and soaked. den still had to walk home. sigh. so darn tired. oh wellz.

i'm trying to forget that
im addicted to you
But i want it and i need it
im addicted to yoo... ...

pEt iS NOT tHe pEpSi-cOLa pRo.

for all you poor people who have lyk totally no idea whats going on, its lyk dis. on saturday pet told me and adriel she very pro in pepsi-cola. den its lyk adriel and i remembered how much we played pepsi-cola last time during camps... so its lyk we challenged her. den its lyk we got back our old talent. as adriel in his usual pro-ness kept beating pet. leaving me wif only a few kills. bwahaha. den lyk on sunday she tyco and managed to kill me, 'driel, sam and tim. tyco one. haha.

if i could find you now things would get better
we could leave this town and run forever
i know somewhere somehow we'll be together
let your waves crash down
on me and take me away... ...

sunday woz okay lah. no biggie. managed to do a little itty-bitty of homework. den lyk everyone woz so stumped by the maths questions they gave during the VJ IP exam. haha. so cool. den went to daddy's old flat.. haha. ate at the hawker center there.. so near AC somemore. the ice kachang is lyk supa nice? haha. den in the evening went cycling wif kor. i did a wheelie, den lyk i pulled the front wheel too high? den the whole bike went over backwards. thank God i jumped off the bike. and lyk only got a scrape on my knee. oh wellz. so pain. cuz its lyk on the surface kind? supa pain. oh wellz. den jus cycled around lah. kor thinks im crazy. he sez one day i'll break all my bones. cuz i lyk to do lyk curbs, skids and stairs. i gez he jus nv see my cycle b4. haha.

today woz boring. went school. i tot i managed to finish all my weekend homework for once. den i went to school and realised and didn't finish a lot. managed to do one compo during class and recess. haha. oh wellz. now i hav lots of homework. somemore exams in 2 weeks. i dont even know ONE new chinese word from all the countless lessons. sigh.

kor-->*sticks out tongue*
ivee-->i bet you cant solve the question!! haha.
pet-->im good too kay! haha.
aramis-->*skids* i owe you a pressie! give it too you soon huh?
d'artagnan-->jammed guitar bullets??!!
athos-->i still owe a pressie! haha.
aBbY-->rawks.

hmmm. life's improving. thank you LORD!! haha. friday training woz lousy though. underperformed lyk so crazy? only got two bullets. lousy. bullets means first position. haha. today had to go for the VJ admission exam thing. met lotsa lotsa old friends there. bwahaha. general ability test was lyk supa easy. english woz lyk supa easy too. maths i finished in 5min.after doing a few questions, i flipped to the back and saw how hard the others were. so i stopped doing. no lah. still did a bit i think. really a killer. haha. oh wellz. had JYC meeting... den hung around in the fellowship deck wif abby, 'driel, daniel and lawrence. quite fun lah. mastered my wheelie. now i can do lyk super super high and for quite long. haha. so fun.

playing wif the electric now. using the com as an amp. haha. pity cant do online jamming. dusen work. oh wellz. sian. tmr got church. yay! haha. i wanna go cycling again. perfect my wheelie. haha.

you rawk.

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY ARAMIS BOI!!!

i guess i can be sad. but im not gonna be!!! *muahahahaha* oh well. lots of ppl being sad these days. even the oh-so rawking peeps who cheered me up when i was down. cheer up huh? it sux to be sad, i noe... oh wellz.

had training yest. had racial harmony day too. had adriel's b'dae too. coool huh? i had to present my class kolam thingy to the whole school. some decoration thing the indians decorate the floor kinda thing. every class had to do. then i woz supposedly the best public speaker in class. nonsense. aiya dunno lah. so jus went and presented. noticed lots of my friends laughing. oh well. then i went for training. in lyk soooo long time!!! haha. i miss my boat. i miss the sailing center. i miss all my sailing frens. bwahaha. and the VS sailing team now has a new mascot --> a LIZARD!!!! haha.. its lyk so cool lor. we found it in my boat. hiding under the boat cover. he/she is lyk so cool lor. the eyes are the nicest part. den lyk if u put him on the boat, den u pick him up, his hands and feet will lyk be stuck to the boat, so lyk he gets a bit stretched. its darn cool lor!!! haha. den lyk he floats on water... haha. its so nice. lol. i sailed pretty well too. mebbe its cuz its adriel's b'dae. mebbe its the mascot. mebbe i jus missed sailing. oh wellz. so fun. we had moderate and then strong wind. n i lyk hiked out oh-so much. somemore so pain. no hiking pants. den i banged my forearm when doing tacking duel wif my fren. so i have lyk a very very big abnormal swelling on my arm. super pain, but supa worth it. haha. fun mannz. now i hav bruises on my thighs all the way to my knee. shows how much i hike out. haha. and the sailing website din put my photo there. sigh. so i cant show u guys. oh wellz.

and she'll have fun,fun,fun till the daddy takes the T-bird away... ...

sian. went to church n still cldn't find my capo. argh. so pissifying. i cant live without my capo. oh wellz. went cycling wif adriello yesterday too. went to visit the soccer guyz, den jus cycled ard lah. adriel learnt how to cycle down stairs. haha. oh wellz. jus restrung my acoustic today. whoah. sounds super super nice. booyeah! haha. i love my acoustic man. *muackx* lol. its super nice to bar and play and slide n stuff now. i love the colour of the strings too. too bad it wont last. oh wellz. i'll enjoy it when i can. haha.


i lay my life down at your feet
'cause you're the only one i need
i turn to you and you are always there

-i want to be where you are-

everythings changin' when i turn around
all out of my control
im a mobile
everythings changin' out of what i know
everywhere i go
im a mobile

hanging from the ceiling
life's a mobile
spinning 'round with mixed feelings
crazy and wild
sometimes i wanna scream out loud

everything's changing everywhere i go
all out of my control
Everything's changing everywhere i go
out of what i know
yeah yeah yeah
lalala

Hey!! I rawk..! I'm bored.. =) Cheer up Jake!!! ;0) Stay oh-so-cheerful yarhz? heh.. =P You rawk!!!! heheh.. ~PINK ROX!!~

*yAaY*

its now again
i find myself
so far down
away from the sun again

sigh. crapped up life. lost my capo, the internet explorer on my com is so screwed. crap lar. the com is so screwed i cant even access my documents. sigh. school is boring. sleeping in class, not understanding anything of wads gg on, failing all my book tests. sigh. all of a sudden i wanna go sailing. its the only place where i can really relax, and for a few hours everything is off my mind. i also get to see her. oh wellz. screwed up life i gez. i wanna go sailing. i wanna sail. sigh.

if i could find you now
thigns would get better
we could leave this town
and run forever
i know somewhere somehow
we'll be together
let your waves crash down
on me and take me away

i miss you.

crap lar. im going nucking futs. wad the heck lar. first i forget my password. den my com starts screwing up, internet is screwed up, n i find out smth dat makes me both confused and sad. sigh. Lord, im sorry. im really really trying. please help me.

okay. cannot be pissed. mummy daddy not home. saturday woz kinda long and tiring. first went for VJ IP. found out i hav to sail laser if im going to VJ. sigh. mebbe i wont go anymore. den went to church. helped out in the decorations, den had a super super long worship pract and everything. found lightsticks to hang on our guitars and stuff. i broke two. so irritating. den the sound system woz lyk so irritating too. oh well. but we did it. worship woz really good. hyper and vibrant. did lots of effects and everything. we last minute cancelled lyk lots of songs. oh well. den josh and i were jumping up and down lyk crazy.. haha. so tiring. den had to pack up. i hate packing up. oh well. den went to simpang for some supper although i din eat anything. den hitched a ride in abby's car home. thnx abby..

today woz ok lah. adriel stayed over frm last nite, and we kinda overslept. actually we woke up, but lyk we were too lazy to get up and fell asleep again. ate wantan mee in the fellowship deck den went to help in the CM preperation thingy. den adriel came over.. played Molez, did some work, watched TV, ate dinner. den he went home. watched Home Alone. kinda sian lah. at least i finished my work, although i cant do my comprehension cuz i left my textbook in the locker in school. sigh. gonna get scolded by teacher. pcant be bothered anymore lah. my com is screwed up too. so am i. argh. not looking forward to school tmr.

i wanna sigh, but i cant be sad. i promised not to be. oh wellz. life is funny.

aBbY you rawk.

do you like me?
cuz i noe i lyk you.
caught u looking at me.
but den again, i woz looking at you too.
u said hi.
after so long?
and you smiled.
you rawk.

thursday woz pretty ok... had school... den went to sailing center to support my seniors.. im such a good junior. got my uniform wet helping them recover... and it woz super cold... wind woz pretty strong, and we were at the lookout. so cold. oh wellz.

today woz kinda ok too. i din understand much of wad my math teacher woz teahing. smth abt graphs etc. oh wellz. went sailing center again.. the last part woz cool. the bytes were recovering, and all of a sudden the storm hit... the gusts were crazy.. some of them were up to 25knots... all over the place u could see bytes capsizing... got myself wet again... den we had prize presentation. we now regret in between TKG and SSPS. they were screaming lyk crazy. sigh. den we walked to sakae and the whole sailing team spent lyk $300+... thank God we had vouchers... haha. poor teacher. den went to play LAN, den went home. oh wellz. tmr is VJ open house as well as Frontliner's 6th anniversary. cant wait. haha..

love is a funny thing

i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
i'm just a kid i know that it's not fair
nobody cares cause i'm alone and the world is
having more fun then me

back. black. same thing. pathetic position. so so supa disappointed. i woz actually 11th for the 1st three races. woz so happie. den dropped to 16th cuz i screwed up my 4th race. den i woz so super disappointed. today woz crazy man. sailed as hard as i could. 5th race-->11th 6th race-->4th!!! yea man.... den the last race has strong wind so i only got 14th. sigh. we lost RI by TWO miserable points. super disappointed. wanted to just protest for fun to hopefully bring down their position. but in the end we din. oh wellz. im super lousy lah. only got 13th in the end. same as my pri6 result. oh well. cant be helped i guess. sigh.

cheer up... ;0)

i dunno why but i jus feel wrong. as in something is missing from my life. oh well. got lots of homework to catch up, IPW is due next week, everything is happening so fast. crap. i stubbed my toe in the boat and its hurting really badly. oh well. i seem to be failing in everything i do. *shrug*

i tried so harde, and got so far
in the ende, it doesn't even matter *eeyo!!!*
i had to falle, to lose it alle,
but in the end, it doesn't even mattere...

feeling sad. again. dunno why. havent communicated wif any of my close frens in ages. lyk havent even msged. life's so empty. *shrugs* i tink im gonna not exceed my phone bill for the first time since i've got my fone. ohwellz. everything seems to be going on around me, while im just stuck here in this portal doing nothing. lyk wad happened to the TMNT in today's episode. oh wellz. funny life.

i miss you.

these few days have been nothing interesting, nothing to talk about. i have just been adjusting to the new teachers, learning about graphs for maths, going for training to prepare for inter-school. oh wellz. din even go running or cycling cuz i dun see wads the point of entertaining yourself to kill time when once u reach home u'll feel bored again. i only went cycling today wif my sailing senior cuz he wanted to. *shrugs* inter-school is next tuesday. i HAVE and MUST perform. if not im screwed. im supposed to be one of the better sailors in VS and everywhere. if not my teacher will lose confidence in me. oh well. must get top 15. oh wellz. at least dun need to go school. pray for me kay? if anyone is even reading. sigh.

it's down to this
i've got to make this life make sense
can anyone tell what i've done
i miss the life
i miss the colours of the world
can anyone tell where i am

'cause now again i've found myself
so far down, away from the sun
that shines into the darkest place
i'm so far down, away from the sun again
away from the sun again

i'm over this
i'm tired of living in the dark
can anyone see me down here
the feeling's gone
there's nothing left to lift me up
back into the world i've known

'cause now again i've found myself
so far down, away from the sun
that shines into the darkest place
i'm so far down, away from the sun
that shines to light the way for me
to find my way back into the arms
that care about the ones like me
i'm so far down, away from the sun again

it's down to this
i've got to make this life make sense
and now i can't tell what i've done

and now again i've found myself
so far down, away from the sun
that shines to light the way for me

'cause now again i've found myself
so far down, away from the sun
that shines into the darkest place
i'm so far down, away from the sun
that shines to light the way for me
to find my way back into the arms
that care about the ones like me
i'm so far down, away from the sun again
i'm gone