say it ain't so,i will not go,turn the lights off,carry me home
na na na na na na na na na... ...

lalala... quite sian!! haha. cuz haven finish my preperations fer exam yet. owellz. pretty sian lah. everyday has been mug mug mug.

monday was the usual studying lah. cant even remember wad i did. umm i tink i went to church to study lah. i THINK 'driel woz dere too. oh yah. remember now. woz at church, den 'driel joined me. we both fell asleep studying, den got woken up by miss ho, our old BMCK teacher. she banged d table den we both woke up. haha. den we fell asleep after a while again. abby n her fren came, den we both got woken up again. haha. yeah. den went home wif 'driel, den went to his house to play guit. we had a kind of acoustic/classical party outside in his garden. haha. rather fun. den we went cycling. i banged my head on a big big tree branch. cuz we were cycling under it and were bending down lah. den i though i passed out under the tree, so i straightened up see. den i din see d big big branch, n my head whacked it super super hard. darn pain can? got one big big baluku dere. sho pain!!! argh. owellz.

yesterday went to church again. abby came, den dlam d slacker came. managed to study quite a bit lah. den went fer tuition. my first tuition in lyk dunnoe how long can? haha. i jus realised dat now im worse den everyone else in d class. owellz. rather saddening lah. sigh. must really buck up. owellz.

today woz okay too i guess. had school, den went to esplanade wif jonathan n jaslyn. got dragged dere. owellz. d library dere is rather nice to study in i guess. haha. yeah. den left early cuz woz supposed to go church fer a while n i din wanna be caught in d peak hour. den everyone pang-seh-ed me and left. pet woz d only nice one to inform me. sigh. never mind lah.

im rather irritated and pissed. cuz these few days i've been packing food to bring to school and eat see. den mummy asks me in d car why im trying so hard to save money. den i tell her i wanna buy a T630 and im saving up to go shopping after exams wif my frens. den she gives me dis long long lecture on not buying a fone n im not allowed to save up so much. i mean lyk why cant i be allowed to save up??! argh. she says cuz i bring food to school, and in the end its still spending money and lots of crap lah. i guess she might be right, but i tink its not fair to not let me save up to buy the stuff i want. sigh. its so not fair lah. anyway exams are coming lyk really really soon, and im not gonna be online cuz im gonna be mugging really really hard. yeah. but whatever lah. cant really be bothered wif dis kind of stuff. owellz.

let's go
don't wait
this nights almost over
honest,let's make this night last forever.
forever and ever
let's make this last forever
forever and ever.let's make this last forever

.let.d.rain.fall.

Jesus You are the reason i live (woah)
Jesus You are the reason i live (yeah)

when i think of things You've done for me
i know You are the reason i live
and i, i want to know You more each day
God please open my eyes
and show me Your way

You are the reason i live in this world
You are the One that i want to be like
You are the reason i live in this world
show me the way to live
i want to be like You

Jesus You are the reason i live (woah)
Jesus You are the reason i live (yeah)

when i think of things You've done for me
Jesus You are the reason i live
and i, i want to know You more each day
God please open my eyes
and show me Your way

Jesus You are the reason i live (woah)
Jesus You are the reason i live (yeah)

i'll always go Your way
and that will never change
You will be the One for all my days
i'll always go Your way
and that will never change
You will be the One for all of my days

yupyuyup. cool song man. united live is a really cool youth group lah. sho fun. haha. owellz. exams are coming. n im not prepared. sigh. dunnoe wad im doing online man. owellz. screwed up worship today. screwed up so badly. dunnoe why d sound crew turned me down after one way. den when i came in wif 'veen, no one could hear me. woz super soft. den had to stop halfway. had to whack on d dist pedal n turn d vol darn high before i could be barely heard. sigh. so paiseh. but d worse woz yet to come. during d transition from song 5 to 6, shaun n i stood up. supposed to hav a quiet stating kind of thing lah. den when i stood up, my strap popped out, n my almost brand new guit fell, and when i tried to grab it from falling, i whacked the strings, n when it fell it made a horrible noise. sigh. i've never had dis kind of thing before. Lord, im sorry fer screwing up your worship. sigh. im sorry. never screwed up so badly before. sorry nat. sorry shaun. sorry 'veen. sorry joanna. sorry pet. sorry sarah. sorry ivan. sorry everyone! argh. so paiseh. den had games workshop. not bad lah. i lyk some of d guy's ideas. i tink we might use it. =) yeah.

God is moving!!!

Holy Spirit, touch Your people
teach us the ways of God
and as we live, as Jesus did
You are honored and lifted up

there's a stirring in the Spirit
there's an urgency in this hour
we as children must obey
can you hear
the footsteps of God

Gos is moving
God is moving
can you hear the sound of revival
Gos is moving
God is moving
can you hear the sound of revival

yup! feeling better now lah. cant be sad. lol. lyk 'driel said, i 4got to write abt d interesting woman we met. haha. kay. athos, 'driel n i were walking to my house. kor woz on d bike. as we were passing kris's house at d playground, all of a sudden dis woman came up to us and started talking to us. she woz lyk - how do i look? look lyk eurasian ryte? portuguese. or latino maybe. a bit of italian ryte? my fren tell me i look lyk dat. den she woz lyk talking and talking and saying she looked eurasian. den we three were looking at each other n were lyk - o...kay... haha. so funny. den woz lyk john was jus nodding, 'driel was telling her -not really lah. a bit maybe. it woz lyk super funny. whatever we would say she wouldn't let us finish talking, den she would start saying lyk - yah yah i noe, my fren tell me one. look lyk portuguese ryte? den i woz lyk - a bit lah... n stuff to shut her up. haha. in the end she jus said - yah i look latino ryte? den walked off. haha so funny. we were walking away and trying not to laugh. LOL!

today went to church to study. got caught in d rain. sigh. jas and her fren, 'driel n abby were dere. quite okay lah. my fren burnt fer me united live- king of majesty and my best friend, and planet shakers - rain down. and also a mp3 cd wif lots n lots of cool songs. haha so nice.

as we praise You, as we sing
draw near to us O God
as we cry out for the nations
pour out revival in the land

there's a stirring in the Spirit
there's an urgency in this hour
we as children must obey
can you hear
the footsteps of God

Gos is moving
God is moving
can you hear the sound of revival
Gos is moving
God is moving
can you hear the sound of revival

amen.

my God is big.
so strong so mighty
my God's plan for me
goes beyond my wildest dreams
my God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God
and He's my refuge
He's the rock on which i stand
He's my fortress
God He is my life
He holds d oceans in his hand.

my God is big
so strong so mighty
my God is good
He's so good to me.

there's nothing my God cannot do.



oh wellz.things have been crazy,hectic,stressful,depressing,but God is still good. amen.rather tired of everything but i'll plug on.nowadays its lyk go to school,den go to church to study study study.i wanna do well.i dun care.but i dun tink im putting in enuf effort yet.owellz.

im super sad lah.not pissed.not depressed.notangry.just sad and disappointed.i feel im drifting away from God.pray fer me please.it sux without Him in my life.i feel super crappy lah.sigh.things have been going really wrong.big things,small things.i rip the side of my PE pants.i can't find d nomad MuVo i borrowed from my fren.im super panicky about it now.im falling behing time in terms of homework and projects due.im growing short of money.but i'll continue to give as much as i have to church.i've been missing offering quite a few times.now my internet cable is screwed up and is going on and off.my partner who is supposed to do d art project wif me decides to be selfish,self-scented,and lazy by telling me he cant do his share of d project because he has to study.lyk i dun need to study liddat.crap lar.its due by midnight today n i hav totally no idea how to go about doing it cuz my partner is supposed to be the one finding out how to do it.pretty screwed up life huh.?im seeing very little of daddy nowadays.even flops.sigh.im tired.very tired.

i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remains
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
battle between grace and pride
give up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain,
wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
this sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust get blown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
and I pray, and I pray, and I pray
take my world apart

worlds apart.

amen.

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remains
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
battle between grace and pride
give up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain,
wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
this sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust get blown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
and I pray, and I pray, and I pray
take my world apart

worlds apart.



argh. stressed. dead. sick. exams coming. dere's smth wrong wif my strat. teacher started new topic oredi. im behind time fer my homework. got homeec practical exam tmr. argh!!!

friday woz d same lah. except dat training went exceptionally well. literally thrashed everyone. although i got a really crazy workout cuz d wind woz so strong n d coach was next to my boat d whole time, forcing me to work super hard lah. sigh.

saturday was quite packed lah. had badminton in d morning. sho disappointing. got knocked out. quite sad lah. owellz. den went to watch the terminal wif stefan, jon n abby!!! *yaay!* haha. i lyk dat show lor. sho nice n touching. cant believe its a true story lah. so poor thing dat guy. den went back to church fer CM worship pract. sorry i pang-seh-ed! haha. woz quite disastrous at d start cuz d drums were not working and stuff. but thank God we got it fixed. haha. den had JYC meeting. sam, adriel, john, daniel, abby and i pitched in to order canadian pizza. sam took all my money n left me only 55cents. sigh. den went to abby's house fer JYC meeting. so fun! *claps hands* adriel sqaushed a woolly mammoth centipede on d way though. sho bad. haha.

HAPPIE BURFDAY DEB!!! rawk on!!! =)

sunday woz pretty okay. waked up a bit late fer worship. den i was lyk hurrying down d stairs n i fell. *ouch* cuz i woz wearing jeans borrowed from abby, n dey were lyk super super long lah. stepped on it n fell. banged my guit too. den rushed to worship pract, met deb on d way up. den woz lyk so stressed cuz a lot of d jacks were spoilt n han ling n i couldn't plug in until d last moment. owellz. den went down to judah after d worship. played sam's guitar wif strings sticking out everywhere. haha. went quite well lah. den went down fer lunch. lost to abby in arm wrestling AGAIN. sigh. haha. den went fer d thanksgiving fer d musical. dats when i started getting sick. almost collapsed during worship. but God helped me through!! *yaay* den i woz lyk sitting by myself at d side of d pews trying to stay upright. i woz lyk praying d whole way fer God to help me. den went downstairs to fellowship deck to put my head down n rest until mummy came. sigh. went home n went to sleep immediately. din even change. den lyk i woke up feeling really hot n woz lyk dying lah. sigh. woz so scared i wouldn't make it through d night. but God helped me!! hallelujah! yeah.

din go school todae. sigh. spent most of my time just sitting around doing nothing or sleeping. oh wellz. hopefully i'll feel good enuf to go school tmr. im really really behind time fer everything. pray fer me kay.

jasmine::thanx fer caring!! =)
ivee::thanx fer cheering me up!!! *waves*
aBbY::thanx oh-so much fer everything!!! you rawk mannz!! -hUgS-
God::thank you Lord fer helping me through n helping me recover!! praise Him!!

hmmm hey. no one's visiting my blog. but i guess i cant really care cuz lyk i'll jus use it as a kind of diary so i'll know wad happened in my life next time. kay dat dusen really work out but nvm.

went wet n wild today. supposed to be broke and have no money but i took an early allowance from next week to go. cuz its my fren's burfday. went wif sheng, jonathan and jaslyn. quite cool. but there woz lyk super strong wind at times n its really horrible cuz you're already wet n it makes u freezing cold. yeah. dey hav dis really cool big big wave pool which sends out artificial waves. its lyk darn darn fun lah. kept bobbing up and down. yeah. i woz so embarrased when i took off my shirt to go swim cuz everyone said my ribs were showing lyk crazy. oh wellz. i eat too much as it is. yeah. den went to watch anacondas at TM. cuz cinderella story and bourne supremacy were sold out. dont ever watch it kay. its horrible. super anti-climax and everything. wasn't supposed to watch it but i guess there was no show left so we went to watch it lah. so many nice shows are out/coming out. the terminal. 13 going on 30. bourne supremacy. cinderella story. shark tale. garfield. lots more which i cant remember. n i tink its raining. haha nvm. yeah.

on d way home to the bus interchange i gave all my spare change to a blind basker. which was about $2 in coins. u mite tink im pretty wierd lah. especially since im supposed to be broke and really really need money. yeah. but as i walked past him i realised dat in dis world dere are people more broke den me. who dun have the luxury of buying a fender stratocaster even if dey really really want it and have been waiting for 10 years to get it. well of course i noe dat basker has been dere for a long long time n stuff, but i still wanna do my bit. i mean lyk hes definetly worse off den me. i could see him lyk feeling around d box for d coins to put in his pouch. i was lyk super touched lah. its super sad. den lyk dere were only a few 5 cent coins in d box. den lyk i was really really super touched. i walked back all d way and gave him all my coins. which makes me very much poorer, since it consists of lyk 30% of all d money i hav. but i can live without it lah. hes super poor thing lah. im lyk super super touched. oh wellz. God is speaking to me. (",)

i lay my life down at your feet
'cause you're the only one i need
i turn to you and you were olwez dere.
in troubled times its you i seek
i put you first that's all i need
i humble all i am
all to YOU!

one way
jesus
you're the only one that i could live for
one way
jesus
you're the only one that i could live for

you were olwez olwez dere
every how and everywhere
your grace abounds so deeply within me
you will never ever change
yesterday today the same
forever till forever meets no end

one way
jesus
you're the only one that i could live for
one way
jesus
you're the only one that i could live for

you are the way
the truth and the light
we'll live by faith and not by sight
for you
we're living all for you.

.amen.

yeah. musical's over. pretty sad, but nevermind.

saturday was pretty fun. woke up late, den walked to church wif paci in d hot hot sun. din hav anything to do so jus watched kor get make-up put on. slacked in the bus, den helped auntie linda carry stuff. ushering duty woz pretty okay, although it gets quite boring and sian at times. yeah. some frens came to watch and stuff. quite fun lah. sunday woz quite nice. for certain parts. woke up the lastest, even later den kor. *gasp* went to church, took bus and almost feel asleep in d bus. den went to help out n stuff. d usual. kor woz a clown again. went to swee lee to buy guitar. pretty last minute lah. thanx so much mummy. broke now. an unexpected person came too. yeah. gave out flowers and stuff. yeah.

dunnoe why. but im feeling pretty down. pontang-ed remedial today. sigh. gonna get screwed by my teachers. i hav a debt of a lot of money. i currently hav not a cent in d world. sigh. i feel crappy for some reason. pray fer me please.

my saviour
redeemer
lifted me from the miry clay
almighty
forever
i will never be the same

cause you came near
from the everlasting
to the world we live
the father's only son

you lived
and you died
you rose again on high
you opened the way
for the world to live again

hallelujah
for all you've done

lalala. haven been online in soooo long. haha.

be yourself day. pretty funny lah. went to school in nike dri-fit, ORANGE OP boardshrorts n TKG pe shirt!!! haha. thnx abby. wen crazy spraying my hair. it woz lyk white, purple, blue, orange, green and red! haha. so farnie. den our band performed "that thing you do" fer d concert. everyone said d lead guitarist woz pro, but d singers spoilt everything. oh wellz. our singers cant pitch lahs. den went back to TNS! but dropped by daddy's clinic to drop my big, heavy and bulky guitar off first. in tao nan i was lyk laughing at all my frens lor. we hav all changed so much. dey were lyk in a shock when they saw my coloured hair. dey thot i became a gangster. haha. den went out wif all my old class-mates!! haha. went to pizza hut n couldn't finish d food lor. had to play the number game to get them eating. den went bowling. haha. so fun! *claps hands*

wednesday woz JYC recce. met abby in d MRT station. sorry fer being late. yeah. den we met raj, daniel and leon. sat at macs waiting fer d PRINCESS to come but she woz late n refused to meet us so we had to go get her. haha. den went to d BB campsite which everyone din lyk. we saw a flattened and dead cat on d road. we tink a car smashed it. there woz lyk a long trail of blood showing how far d car had dragged it lah. haha. so cool. den we saw a monitor lizard which pet chased away by spraying water on it although i dun really know why lah. haha. d brigade campsite woz pretty nice too. so lyk we chose it. it has a RED room which looks and smells lyk it woz a slaughter house. haha. so fun. den we went to see d jap tunnels. sho FREAKY!!! cant believe d BB boys had d guts to go in lahs. den we saw a supposedly DEAD man trying to suffocate himself by sleeping in a car wif carbon monoxide poisoning. den sam, raj and leon had to go wake him up. he wasnt dead. chey! haha. but lyk it was so freaky n he was staring at us all d way. den he drove off. but it was lyk dunno why, but his pants were hanging on d back of d passenger seat lahx. den leon said he naked from hip down. sho sho freaky. haha. den we went to sun plaza to eat ice kachang! haha sho nice. den went to church fer musical. had to fill goodie bags. sho sian. den took auntie linda's car to RJH. woz so alone dere. sigh. but nvm lahs.

today woz sho argh. had school, n lyk i went on a copying spree lah. din do all my homework cuz i felt asleep yesterday. den lyk woz copying lyk crazy lah. den it was raining lyk crazy. woz praying so hard fer it to stop. it stopped!! haha. thank you Lord. but lyk only d first part had good wind. maybe ard lyk 13 knots. but den it suddenly dropped n we were dying lah. so sian. den we jumped off our boats n swam and pulled our boats home. nat squad woz training, n dey're lyk so hardworking lah. dey were still out at sea by the time i left. oh wellz.

tmr is musical. some of my frens are gg. dey're lyk gonna laugh at me lah. oh wellz. i'll bring hair spray! haha. so fun. yupyupyup. see ya peeps tmr!! bwahaha.

it doesn't matter what they say
in the jealous games people play
hey, hey, hey
our lips are sealed... ...