sorry, but i HAD to do this. your orange layout was driving me crazy; the orange's too bright, the font's too small, the color contrast's damn annoying! i promise to change it to something orange on friday. and i'll try to get your 'permanent' layout done by the end of next week. 'til then, email me your photos. <3

i've taken a liking to sailing once more. not 'cause there are girls. actually there are not many. barely any actually. never mind. anyway, its nice you know, solitude and all. for a few blessed hours you get to take your mind off everything, and concentrate on things that you cant change. the wind, current, bias-ed starting line, lull. except your position lah. THAT you can change.

not the issue here. but still. to focus on the elements, and how you manipulate and extrapolate your course in which you get to the finish line the fastest. instead of trying to fix things you cant fix, eg. strong wind and heavy current at the start line, mega big header when you're already at the layline; instead you do your best to manuever yourself out of the predicament (if you're in one) and work on pulling yourself back up the fleet. instead of trying to undo what you've done, you live with it and work your way back up.

strong wind today at training. i realise that most of the time i don't feel like training at all, yet when im out at sea i realise how much im in love with it. training is quite fun cause i get 1st all the time, albeit it not being a total thrashing. if i work hard at it i can easily own the training team, so its a way to hone my skills and practice focusing for long periods instead of goofing off. especially when i screw up the start, have to work hard to get back up. like i said, it takes your mind off things. i have an added challenge cause im always too lazy to bring my watch so i dont have timing and have to rely on dead reckoning.

1st race i got first, albeit a pretty slow start. managed to cover thou. 2nd race i OCS-ed, had to do penalty, started last. concentrated hard and got 1st by quite a bit. 3rd race was messed up, got caught in the fleet. rounded the upwind mark in the middle of the fleet. fought back to a narrow 1st. almost lost out. owellz. it was prolly winds of 17-18 knots at the start, died down to about 11-12 towards the end. good training on the whole. im proud of myself! shows i can do anything as long as i put my heart to it. of course, God was behind me all the time. i cant believe myself. a few months ago i couldn't stand training. owellz. i'll work hard, and we'll beat AC next year again! i'll be VS's 3rd sailor, albeit there being 3 nat sailors and 1 probation one. yeahyeah!

i did pretty well for my CA2, even thou im really disappointed with some results. i think altogether i managed to whack about 5 A1s, and nothing below C5. i got C5 for chinese!! woohoo! thank God. uber tyco, but who cares. haha.

on a lighter note, im back to blogging after a 17 day hiatus. really cant be bothered. anyway. VS? co-ed? no thanks! seriously. what's the reason for this? yet another of mr ang's plans to RESTRUCTURE VS? he's been watching too much of PM Lee Hsien Loong's rally speech. leave us alone man! what a joke. anyway, there are no girl's toilets in VS.

took my 5 stations for napfa today. got 4As and 1C. sit-ups. wahaha. what a joke. but its an accomplishment for me, to even get C for sit-ups. i did 37, right on the dot. for the past 2 years i've been deprived of a gold because my sit-ups cannot make it and couldn't get C. last year was the worst. missed C by ONE. argh. anyway, i aced the rest lah. God's good! woohoo. my class is crazy bout computer games. we have the warcraft DOTA corner, where they talk about all the funny spells. EVERYDAY, every hour on the hour. don't they get sick of it?? man. anyway, my class has a few CS experts, and on teacher's day we wanna go out play LAN. so looks like i better improve my CS. especially AWP. haha.




look to Him.

jake's got a monkeyshine on his head

HAHAHAHA that's a line from a song! //runsoff-

quotes from jacob sillybilly hiew:

"it's a catastrophe! if everyone continues wearing skirts as short as yours, we'll have a cataclysmic disaster, and civilations will crumble!"

i ask, "where's my email? huh? huH? hUH? HUH?"
the little prince says, "i'm too busy. if you want an appointment, please check with my secretary."

he insults me, then claims he's "giving perfectly logical, sensible and cost-effective ideas. constructive criticism."

i want to complain about his totally unacceptable -mei da mei xiao- behaviour. he turns around and accuses me of bullying him, then threatens to "bring my gang then you know".

//TSK!

from the desk of -royalty- princesspetrina.

bloody blind old men. call me OCS. bloody hell. go and die lah where got OCS i got a a witness lah. i can jump by a freaking 10 positions. then you dont even post up the freaking results how to redress. screw the blind OD lah. go and die. don't even know how to set course. put so near to keta. keta has a lull next to it for goodness sake. how to bank corner and lay the line? wtf. somemore put back-to-back starts. the darn laser radial screwed up my rounding, cost me almost 8 postiions. PLUS its an obstruction how are you supposed to fight for waves if there's this darned thing in the center, MOVING SO SLOWLY, plus covering your wind when you pass it? freak of nature. plus your horn zhao xia since the first race on the first day. change it lah! how the heck you expect people to hear the I flag warning when its port bias. you're expected to camp at the line how to hear the dumb horn all the way the other side of the line. somemore your line totally not sqaure. sigh.

i'll stop now. please forgive the earlier outburst, i am just frustrated over the way pesta sukan was conducted. thankfully its the last ranking race till the end of the year. on a lighter note, VS once again managed to clinch 1st from both sports school and AC. we'll be dominating man. next year we have to whack inter-schools too. and after my batch leaves VS can close down sailing already, considering the fact that AC and sports school are gonna take all the pro sailors. and im keeping the team plaque, not gonna give it to mr oh. look what happened. the sailors he put on probation flourished. me and fendi. and his beloved hardcore captain and the others all did so badly. looks like we all gotta pontang training in the future. i should stop. being angry and complacant will get me nowhere. i forgive everyone who has wronged me, and i apologise to those i have wronged.

FOP was pretty cool, yet another opportunity to experince God in His full majesty and glory. its a bond to Him i havent felt in a long time, simply cause im too lazy to make time for Him. im gna change that. yesyes i will. shit i got ulcers again. TWO. on the lip. if you ever have a choice not to wear braces, please dont. it sucks. it sticks to your lip and when your mouth is dry in the morning and you wake up and open your mouth it just tears the lip when it pulls away from it. creates ulcers. i have had ulcers ever since i put them on. i feel like tearing them away from my teeth. cant stand it. sigh.

how do you know what God wants to tell you? how do you know what He wants you to do? how do you know how He wants you to live your life? how do you know what He wants you to do at that certain point of time? it all seems so wierd to us right. how does God talk to us? will it be like in the bible times; like the burning bush, the hand writing on the wall? the answer seems so variable and all, as if there's no fixed way. i guess it is true. yet its still pretty much the same now, and in the past. except for the lack of the having to have offerings, and only the high priest in the holiest of holies etc. God works in different ways, sometimes He can send a person to tell you stuff, for example encouraging you when you're down. which is like how He sent the prophets to tell His people stuff in the old times. there are many ways lah. yet the most important one of all is that He speaks to us during our QT.

even in the past, daniel prayed to God for long stretches of time everyday, and that's how he knew what God wanted Him to do. this shows the importance of QT. that God speaks to you through your daily QT, and that you can meditate on His word and teachings and discover what plans He has for you. admittedly, i dont do my QT as often as i'd like. so this is also a waking up call to myself, and as a way of a vow to God that i will listen and concentrate on Him more instead of trying to do things myself. in our teenage days, we seem to encounter a myriad of problems, each so complex and complicated and so hard to get over.

i read somewhere that it seems to most people that the probability that something can go wrong is directly proportional to the square of the amount of inconvenience it can cause you. wahaha. yet, these are merely tests that God throws at us to help us learn to overcome all these trivial problems. and more importantly, to learn to trust in Him. remember that God will never give you something that you cannot handle. and that He has everything planned out for you, so if some things dont happen the way you plan them to, know that its all in God's masterplan for all of us. =) trust in Him, and follow Him with childlike faith.




woohoo.