aha. the school year is at an end. results are in, farewells bid to teachers leaving, the partying begins. i managed a meagre 86th in the level and 7th in class. please dont ask what my L1R5 is. at the start of the year, i entered 3I 2nd in class, due to fabulous results. actually i'd have been in 3D, a better class, if not for the absurd VS administration who decided to shift me down at the last minute. i wonder what sort of experiences i'd have had if i went there. but i guess my results are simply a reflection of how much work i have put in. actually, it is MORE than the work i put in. starting studying intensively only in the week before exams, i didn't expect to pass many suubjects, let alone getting 7th in class. while its not a spectacular result, i wouldn't have even been able to manage that kind of result without my wonderful, loving and extremely gracious Father in heaven. i attribute it all to you, Father. thank you:)

im listening to "emmanuel" on tootsie now, its amazing how much God can speak to me! i was just reading the words i typed, and the song went, "emmanuel, our God is with us". how true! i have been blessed with the presence of my God and King recently; even though i have broken many promises i have vowed to keep to Him. i am guilty of many sins, and without Jesus's blood i would certainly have been struck dead by lighting now. yet our God is gracious, our God is ever-forgiving. praise be to Him.

JYC draws near, and things are beginning to take shape. worship practices, games, confirmation, etc. yet my constant prayer is not for a wonderfully spectacular camp, not for manifestations of the spirit, not for many hearts to be touched during our camp. all these are just by-products. my one prayer is for God to be with us as we plan and execute the camp, and for His presence to be there as we work it out. it is YOUR camp, and we invite Your Spirit to be with us, Father.

ah, the album "You are my world" is so nostalgic, so touching. it came out when i was still in primary school, i remember loving the songs then, and listening to the whole album at one shot. yet now it still ministers to me. by meditating on the words of songs one can hear God's ever-present voice speaking to you. it is so true that He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. im awe-struck at His power and majesty.





irresistible.

everybody jump around in the house of God
hey, hey!
jump around!
everybody jump around in the house
everybody!

its the 27th of october, just a few weeks to JYC. im looking forward to it, not only cause its a church camp where everyone has fun, but also to the exhilarating worships we usually have in camps. somehow, frontliners feel more energetic during the worships we have in camp, and not those in the normal youth service. everyone's more lively, somehow feeling more compelled to throw and sing their hearts out for our Lord. it does help to prepare your heart before worship, or church service or any kind. say a prayer to the Lord, prepare yourself to worship/learn etc. also, during the service itself, you'll find it easier to concentrate. although, of course, i am guilty of not doing that all the time, for example being late etc. however, every prayer counts, even short ones.

i've been watching numerous shows on jiejie's (there, mentioned you, didn't i?) tootsie. OC season3, into the blue and drumline. rachel bilson woohoo! oh, 'driel, if you think jessica alba is hot, you should REALLY watch into the blue. woohoo. drumline is really funky drum movie, the snare drum band kind. 'driel if you wanna watch it tell me k. i have to import 20+ songs for jiejie into tootsie. gotta find a thumbdrive or USB cable if not im gonna have to take a long time. anyone wanna play CS with me? LAN or internet doesn't matter, im sick of playing with the pros/hackers online. actually, i think im getting sick of it.


resonate, emanate.

Psalm 94 verses 18 & 19 say: when I said, "my foot is slipping," your love, O Lord supported me. when anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.


aha, back from an almost month-long blogging hiatus. im listening to "made me glad", no actually watching it, the VCD. and that earlier verse came into mind. our shelter, strong tower. OUR VERY PRESENT HELP IN TIME OF NEED. ever wondered the significance of that statement, especially when we're singing it in worship? Psalms 94:18-19 say it all. and reflecting back on the past hectic month of fervent studying and mugging, i can truly testify that its God's work which helped me and brought me through. i dont expect good results, because i KNOW they wont come. what, start studying only one week before exams? and expect to get a single digit for my L1R5? yet, in spite of my seemingly ignorant attitude towards my studies, He's never given up on me, and the exam week itself i have been so motivated to study. the Emath paper i found relatively easy while many others didn't; managed to finish my SS paper despite writing one page of crap then realising i was not answering the question. many, many more miracles has He worked through me. last sunday, i went up to the cross with john. amazingly, He's touched me like never before. you know, there's no denying the presence and the graciousness of our God. fittingly, im watching "through it all" now. now, i am not at all concerned with my results. while i know i didn't do my best, i know that God chose to work in me, and in everything that happens, His purpose WILL prevail. so fret not about the outcome of your exams or whatnot, you worrywarts, and go and do your thing with God by your side, and the confidence that God WILL work His thing through you.


i have been going crazy on CS. the last 2 nights, CS for about 2-3 hours. i dare say im improving, though im still getting thrashed in some servers. must improve my AWP. i purged my inbox about three days ago, and now i've got more than 100 messages in it. the bill's gonna boom die. i watched into the blue yesterday,(slow, i know) with dom and john. jessica alba woohoo! the cinema was empty so we made lots of noise. went to PS to the samsung customer service center to fix kor's mp3, and when the guy asked for my IC, i abashedly "oh, im not fifteen yet." the guy looked at me for a while. what a faux pas! (in the right context, unlike john who seems to use it in every sentence hinthint). oh btw, the hillsong band is TIGHT. SUPER UNITED. all of a sudden, with one point from darlene zschech, they just cut, leaving the drums. plus she was not exactly looking at them, making sure they were looking. im darn sure it was impromptu. plus, when the song ended, she just came in again, and THE WHOLE BAND picked up after her. if only FL could be like that one day. hillsongs is not exactly that pro, as i realised in FOP, but EXTREMELY anointed, just like JT says. that's what FL should strive to be. and also, i need to get one of nigel peipman's PRS guitars and his extensive stompbox collection. and i need shaun to help me create a new watery, ambience kind of effect in my tonelab. woohoo.



oh yesterday, when outside, we saw the hippo tours bus. you know, the one with the open-top? at the side, it said "be HIP! go TOPLESS!"