i got 6/30 for my chinese book test. no one bothered to read the book, much less bring it, even though it was an open-book test. i got 4/10 for the open-ended, a commendable effort eh? but i got 2/20 for the MCQ thou. i answered all "C" for it, thinking that there'd be at least quite a few so i'd confirm get some right, but in the end, there were only 2 Cs. heartbreaking. if i'd chosen B i'd have gotten 9 for the MCQ. oh well, life's like that sometimes.


there's so many things people want to do. take me, for example. i wanna tone up (not that i dont already have a buff body:D), be more confident on a skateboard (esp while ollieing), do well in sailing, master both the guitar and drums, take up music as a profession, get into either VJC or ACJC, find a loving spouse (must be the one God chose for me), grow closer to God. so many things, i could probably list a whole myriad, a plethora of them. yet, there are few, if any, of them which we will achieve. simply because God has a far bigger, better plan for all of us. and when God has revealed Himself to you, and when you've seen the full power of His majesty and grace, when you've seen His glory and might, you'll want to do everything you can for Him. living to the purpose He set out for you, one of them being that of evangelising. our God is an awesome God. also, never underestimate the power of prayer. God is powerful.

hear the sound of the generations
making loud our freedom song
all in all, that the world would know your name
we're gonna be alright



all i need is you.

i've seen this pretty cool phrase somewhere. it goes "God put me in this world to fulfill a purpose. at this rate i'll never die". thought provoking eh? well of course, the principles are wrong, since its up to you to choose whether or not to walk the path God has set out for you, but it does open our eyes- are we doing what God wants us to do; living Godly lives and following His plan?

throughout the rough roads, He has been faithful. in times of despair, He has been there. in times of indecisive-ness, He has paved the path. in times of unfaithfulness, He has been forgiving.

my God, is big
so strong, so mighty
my God's plans for me
goes beyond my wildest dreams
my God, is good
He's so good to me


guitars and effects. a major headache. i've been reading my tonelab SE manual, i dont understand half the stuff they talk about! the electronics and how to adjust the settings of the diodes and valves/tubes to get the kind of sound you want. EL84 output valves or 6L6 ones? i wouldn't know.




oh, and jie, if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU :))


there's nothing my God cannot do.

everytime i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray
i waited for that final moment
to say the words that i can't say


this post is dedicated to the memory of the late Cheng Su.



every moment of the past 3 months and 7 days you came into the Hiew family, you've been a bundle of joy, dancing and prancing at our feet everytime we set foot on the first floor of the house. i'll never forget you, how you always manage to decorate the furniture by sprawling out on them, spider-style, as you sleep. how you liked to sleep under the car in the afternoon, and when i came home from school you'd greet me at the gate. how we debated endlessly at what your name was to be. arlene/ cheng su/ miao miao etc. i'll never forget the day you first came, when you were still a skinny and scrawny, feline furball. look at what you've become now, a result of us pampering you. your stomach grew to such humongous proportions as compared to when you first came, so much so that i was led to believe that you were pregnant, at least for a while. how you turned from that timid little thing to one as bold to sneak upstairs and hide under the piano so that no one would find you. as cliche as it sounds, you were there for me to talk to. the night you didn't wanna go out to sleep cause of the big cat that always terrorised you, i went down to keep you company. and even though half the time you were washing yourself, you've let me think through my thoughts, reminisce about stuff. i let you sleep in the house in the end. i'll never forget how you sneaked upstairs and shat and pee-ed in my room; how you always try to steal my food everytime i eat dinner in fron of the TV by batting those huge eyes at me; how your tiger stripes always remind me of the puss-in-boots in shrek. you've been buried in your favourite spot in the garden, and everytime i see the cute, tiny cross there, tears inadvertently start flowing. i'll never forget how you always manage to piss floppy off by just sitting in the kitchen and watching him, how i managed to get you two to get along in the end. i was with you when you got run over, i carried you to the vet, i stroked you to calm you down in your misery. towards that last period of your life, you became increasingly sullen and quiet, partly because you couldn't move around, due to your game leg. the image of you writhing in pain, mouth agape in horror can never leave my mind, the way you limped and dragged yourself back into the house; just broke my heart. i can only thank God that you passed away peacefully, at night. i cried till there were no more tears left to cry, i mourned your passing. the house is so quiet without those bells round your neck ringing, without your incessant meowing whenever you were hungry. there's just too much to say, so much has happened in the short span that you were here. i'll never forget you.



wait for and greet me at heaven's gates when it is finally my turn too.







time machine.

i can see clearly now; the rain is gone
i can see all obstacles in my way
gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
it's gonna be a bright, sunshine-y day!

oh yes i can make it now; the pain is gone
all of the bad feelings have disappeared
here is the rainbow i've been praying for
it's gonna be a bright, sunshine-y day!

look all around, there's nothing but blue skies

to the cutest, sweetest thing in the entire kingdom, the one most likely to be surrounded by roving gangs of larcenous old ladies, THANK YOU.

with all the love from my heart to the moon and back, jiejie.

goodbye 2005, hello 2006.


ah, its been a rather slow ending to what was a relatively fast-paced year. sec3 flew by, i still remember my 1st day of sec3, where they made me switch classes at the last minute, where all the PRCs sat in front of the class. i remember church camp, which overlapped jiejie's birthday. squash balls in the ceiling, go-kart disasters. i remember the many camps we had during the last part of the year; JYC, VBC, SYC. the switch from the KORG AX1500G to the VOX tonelab SE. enter the immensely light VIC FIRTH sticks. so many things have changed and happened. through it all, God works in my life. i've grown up quite a bit. to mature in Christ. in all things, give thanks to the Father. i love Him. oh, and i love my jiejie too. lots.






my superhero.